day 976 – big day

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time to take it out on the mats in oregon. competing in three events at this year’s us world open and no matter how many competition i have been to, i am still feeling the pre-competition jitters. it was a long and tiring day at the competition with a super early start. started off well for my pairs showing, followed by a disastrous effort for team, but capped it off nicely with a strong performance for individual. at the end of my third event, i can finally rest easy and chill a little with my mentee. i can only afford to relax knowing i gave it my everything and left everything on the mat. i dare say i am content with my performance and can head home feeling a little proud of myself as well

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a-game at us world open

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there was no shortage of pressure at us world open with the presence of the grandmaster, team of students and their parents. little was said, but this competition would also determine my path moving forward and going to nationals next month. i went into this competition feeling undertrained because of all my commitments with the sunrun, dodgeball, playoffs, demos and coaching duties; too much time spent coaching the kids i left no time for myself. it was a mixed bag of feelings from being emotionally unstable to psychologically drained cause i knew what was on the line, physically fine for the most part other than coping with a bad groin that won’t heal and battling a week-long cold. the pressure was far beyond anything i’ve ever experienced since all my school’s competitors had already finished their events, leaving me last to go on stage so everybody hovered behind my ring. i am not a fan of spotlight and this certainly a lot more attention than i am comfortable with. what made it even more nerve wrecking is i was queued second last in my division meaning i had to go through the pain of watching and waiting for my fellow competitors. i was so nervous i didn’t dare watch any of my competitors or their results. i zoned out everyone who tried to talk to me and only focused on what i had to do. i went out there and did what i had to do, walked off the mats straight to my coach without even looking at my score. i was greeted by high fives and a “pretty good” which meant the world to me cause rarely does he compliment me. everybody was quick to tell me i secured at least a silver medal based on the scores of those who went before me. i didn’t believe it, but came to realization as the final results were announced. it wasn’t the medal around my neck that brought joy to me, it was beating my biggest rival from my own school and that proved plenty, more than words can say. most importantly i felt good out there doing what i thought was my best poomsae and best performance yet. the silver lining was i later found out the mexican who topped my score was the bronze medallist at this year’s worlds. thankfully i was told after the fact or i would be too psyched out, as if i didn’t have enough pressure

day 450 – atop the podium

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standing on top of the podium amongst that company meant much more than just winning because it felt extra awesome knowing i am starting to round into my form after months and months of continuous struggles with some severe injuries. still far from where i want to be but i will seek ways to do what i can to get to where i want. through this whole process i learned to deal with the unexpected, work with what i had and make the best out of the condition i was given. can’t say it wasn’t a long and difficult road back but hardwork and patience of rehab does pay off. there were also moments of doubts where i thought it was the end but i am glad i didn’t let that happen otherwise i wouldn’t be standing atop the podium. beating some blue pants is a telling tale and a sweet comeback. can’t wait to get mine. it’s good to be back

day 444 – podium finish

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claiming two golds and one silver from washington state cup. riding on the highs of adrenaline is the only reason i am still standing. being majorly sleep deprived after little sleep the week leading up to trip and only catching a three hour snooze the night prior to competition. proud to say it was a success and the team bc was well represented. first time going to this competition and we gained respect and turned some heads from other competitors, coaches and masters. this may be a start of something that leads to bigger things. the bonus is its my first competition after the summer of knee horrors, and everything seems to be feeling fine so i hope to put that in behind me and look forward to the good days