day 2491 – square one

nothing to feel good about in tonight’s session. back tucks and front tucks were passable. everything about my webster is wrong so i’m back to square one. i left the gym feeling disappointed and extremely upset with myself. stayed up much later than i should’ve, clearly bothered and frustrated with how my webster had broken down and in general how incompetent i was. i was already on a bubble tea ban prior to this, but now i made up my mind that i’ll be indefinite until i can land my webster on the floor

day 2376 – not deserving

i felt like crap after training because i simply couldn’t replicate and connect my cartwheel with anything going backwards. i wanted help but no chance because he’s too focused helping one person. left the gym disappointed beating myself up. i didn’t deserve to eat so i went straight home so i wouldn’t tear up in front of people. whenever i don’t do what i need to, i would punish myself with no food because eating needs to be earned

day 741 – homemade froyo

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can’t say i didn’t call it. my forearms are sore the day after wakeboarding. but what i didn’t expect was to be sore to the bone that even my hands and fingers were sore, i had ample of trouble gripping a pen, eating utensils and typing on keyboard. nothing to do since my hands and forearms seem so incompetent. so i skipped out on my plans and ended up eating homemade froyo instead

day 365 – getting work done

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making good use of my time and being productive sure makes time go by much quicker. been so fed up of this incompetent computer that can’t support and lags when using any large programs. something needs to be done about this because it totally affects my productivity and efficiency