feeling gutsy and antsy with the flips and couldn’t hold myself down any longer. it’s hard to describe the feeling i had when i realize even after all that happened to me, i just did a back tuck by myself. sure, the technique is not as good as my prime days, but at least i can still do them unspotted. best of all, i didn’t experience any pain in my ankles. i think i still want to to train through my ankle woes, but train smart so i’m still able to condition it regardless if i go under the knife or not
can’t say no when work offered free tickets to beyonce and jayz concert. i was getting impatient when the show was delayed an hour before some chloe x halle came on for a couple intro songs. it was also freezing inside bc place, but when beyonce hit the floor, she really did put on a show. the stadium was down right shaking when the music came on. it was a good show but ran way too late on a weeknight
though not cleared for most activities i do, the surgeon has given me the okay to be here. my gear was ready and my bag was packed while i waited for his signal. it’s the first time in over two months i could legitmately be here in my happy place doing the happy things. a stupid setback happened due to my impatience and inability to stay put. i thought i was okay, i wanted to be okay, but only after exerting it did i find out it was still premature
the plate seems a lot heavier than weeks ago. my body still feels so out of sync from neck down after the accident. the many recent mishaps caused so many disruptions to my progress which is making me more impatient day after day. i’m still trying to rebuild but that won’t happen unless my body is recalibrated and it doesn’t help when i can’t seem to fall asleep and stay asleep at night
it’s an off day away from the gym once again so here’s my version of throwback thursday. every time i walk by this rack i have the urge to lift these. it’s been weeks since i have and i miss it too much. i disregarded restrictions and tried on a number of occasions, but ended up giving my back more setbacks. i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t in pain more than half my waking hour, but i want to keep doing what i do. more importantly, my october competition status is up in the air if it doesn’t get better soon. i can only stay patient for so long, and i am not a patient person when it comes to recovery. when will i be back lifting normally without pain??
i swear i was stuck here for ten plus minutes waiting for this long ass train to cross. quite possibly one of the most boring ten minutes of my life watching it slowly make its way from right to left but there’s nothing i could do about it. at some point i got so impatient i put my car into park and even tempted to turn off my engine. at least i had a very active and fun filled night with gym followed by a solid hour and a half of dodgeball. that’s two straight days being physically active but i am expecting to be mighty sore tomorrow
buying stuff is fun but waiting in line is not so much. the mall was pretty packed today and line ups were much longer than i could remember. so much has changed at metropolis it almost feels slightly foreign to me. it shows that i really haven’t done any physical shopping for a long long time because i have relied heavily upon online shopping nowadays. so much i want to buy, but limited on time and money to do so