day 1818 – work morons

dealing with morons at work isn’t good use of my time, but it’s what i’ve had to put up with lately. one of the manager has been poking me for a while and the way she provokes me agitates me because of her ignorance and lack of sense. good thing she is no longer the design manager, but the real question is how is she still a manager? i know she’s out to get me and she’s already been talking shit to the ceo who is easily persuaded because he doesn’t know better. while i’m not surprise she keeps stirring shit behind my back, it built up so much aggression i wish i could stick her face on a target so i can kick it until it falls off

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day 1812 – boardroom talks

i’ve been really good at this poker face game and not let other departments’ ignorance get to me and my team. several chains of emails came my way that almost triggered me to lose my cool today and almost broke my streak. usually my manager would ask me if i’m okay and i’ll say yes ninety eight percent of the time. the fact i didn’t say okay when he asked today was enough for him to notice something was up. i had a lengthy chat with him and together we had an approach. i left the room a bit less angered having let out some. this dampened my mood and i skipped all forms of exercises entirely

day 1573 – unravel

not the typical day i thought it would be at work. i thought i would go about my own business and keep my composure just as i’ve always done, but i unraveled in a hurry. i refused to bring my personal life to work and need not to explain the battles i fight. i was in pure frustration to hear people who have no idea what i’m going through make ignorant assumptions and go as far as using ‘abusing rights’. i never want to unload any of my problems on anyone cause i believed i’m tough enough to shoulder my own burden. clearly i haven’t said enough; hr and manager are asking to be let in on things i bottled up for much too long. they want to be my outlet and they want me to know i can let them in

day 871 – lift a little

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soreness amassed from this week’s training and physio exercises shouldn’t stop me from my scheduled workout. i went to the gym as planned and was prepared to struggle mighty hard. as i had the weight on my back, i thought the bar felt extra heavy today. it was difficult, but somehow forced myself to finish it and walked off still intact. i was randomly thinking back on my squats this evening, and suddenly realized the weight i had mounted on my bar exceeded what i thought i had. i felt dumbfounded i hadn’t realized it at that time, but pleased that i had done it anyway. it goes to show that the mind likes to play number games and sometimes ignorance is a good test for the body