day 1379 – icbc rehab

img_20200204_1532211689043998011456866.jpgthe bad just got worse and now i’m put on a long chiro rehab program through icbc. the quality of life is just not there at the moment and i really want to give up. there’s no comfortable position between sitting, standing and laying down; basic mobility is compromised to the point where the pain keeps me from sleeping. it’s been a horrid week sleep deprived, not being able to go to gym, not playing sports like normal, not able to be myself. it’s asking for too much from me when i have reduce some of my physical activities and even hold off in some cases. i try not appear in pain but even staying strong has its limits and i’ve reached it. i don’t know if restricting all my sports is easier or death

day 270 – strong urge

image

mr sun is out, the weather is changing for the better, i want to be out on the hardcourt hitting my green balls. at the same time i know i have to hold off and set my priorities straight for much more pressing issues. no hardcourt, no other sports and minimal dodgeball until i return from nationals. i can’t afford to have any hiccups because i have already committed to compete. i can look forward to having a lot of playing time this summer after competition