work really feels like a drag in the recent days. i have an overflowing amount of tasks and deadlines but none of it is giving me much excitement or motivation. maybe it has to do with the lack of appreciation for what i do as well as the amount of additional tasks i’m assigned to that’s unrelated to my job description. thank goodness it’s finally friday so i won’t have to be in this office the next two days. i looked forward to the week’s end even though i have to work on saturday anyway
ever so busy getting students ready for tomorrow. i have about two dozen students taking this month’s promotion test. since it’s the last test of the calendar year, i’m cramming a few more who’s well overdue. i think as an instructor, i’m more concerned and nervous than the students who’s taking the test. i worked them all pretty hard today, keeping all after class longer than usual. hopefully their hard work pays off at the test
my weekly saturday ritual is all about teaching at killarney and the new civil war season that just started up again. it was a crazy hectic shift. the first class of the term is always busier, but also had to worry about preparing students for the belt test while teaching with two fewer instructors. i enjoy teaching, for that reason, my work week doesn’t end on friday, and sometimes doesn’t even end on sunday. sometimes i could use a weekend off
march will be focusing on me; not on what others want or need, but what i need and what i want. reason being march will be a hectic month trying to get everything back running in full line and at top gear. i have to be a bit more selfish because i realized i give up too much of myself for people who show little appreciation. i have a ton lined up. i made a few commitments along the way, balancing work and balancing life while staying on top of my diet are all keys to how successful i’ll be
when is it my turn to take a real vacation to get away from this hectic life?? i have taken time off, i have flown and driven and gone across canada, but none of which was purely for vacation because i held competition obligations. i am drained, overworked and am in dire need of a vacation where i can just relax and get away from stresses of life no matter how big or small. there’s too many places, cities and countries on my wishlist; when and where will i be able to fulfill them??
too stressed out lately with all that school work, applications and deadlines coming up in a hurry. getting my stress therapy so i can regroup before i snap and lose my mind. i have come to realize this is one of my happy place where i can be alone in my own little world. so glad i have an outlet because i know this place is where i can get away from the busyness of my hectic life
it may sound strange coming from a person whose life runs at the speed similar to the highway traffic where park zones do not exist. i am just at a point in my life where all my commitments and deadlines are happening all at once, and no matter how fast i push myself, i can never fit everything into a my twenty four hour span. i hate to say that all my commitments may not even fit even if i was granted an additional two hours each day. i drive a bmw with a relatively powerful engine, if i was given a race caliber car, it would be scary scene to see how fast my life moves at when i step on that gas pedal. in the past month, i have been running on a full load and tight schedule based on an average of five hours of sleep per night. its a miracle that i am still functioning after several weeks but i am uncertain how long i will be able to hold up. some things has got to change or i won’t be able to keep up with this hectic and crazy lifestyle. with that said, life is not a race to the finish line, learn to slow it down and pace yourself. you will be glad you did because there are many rewards at every stage of life and chances are you may miss it if you speed through everything