day 1558 – polar


the start of november has seen some cold days, so cold it’s already reached below zero temperature. the sunshine makes me want to walk outside, but the cold went deep through the skin and into the bone within a minute. i haven’t put away my summer clothes yet and already miss the summer days. daylight savings ending makes it darker and colder earlier. deep inside my heart feels as cold as the air outside; i only wish there’s a fix to what’s wounded inside

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day 1425 – waterworks

when was the last time i smiled from the heart?? please take me back in time and erase the nightmare i’ve been trapped in. there’s just no smiling today; not even the fakest. the only thing i did was cry as it continuously and uncontrollably roll down. my eyes were like waterfall no matter how hard i tried not to think. my eyes are tired, my mind is tired and so is my heart. the uncertainties of what i should do is far from over. i can’t imagine going to work tomorrow and anything acting like myself

day 1310 Рmatcha koala 

thank you for bringing me koalas when i needed a spark in my day. getting the special delivery eases the tears because it made me feel special. it’s not easy to swallow the heartless things i received, but with time, open ears and tender loving care, i will be okay. it wasn’t the best of days, but i’ll hold my head up and continue to trek. in the meantime, i’ve got a competition to get to and lots of last minute packing to do