day 544 – fighting self

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it’s one of those days where nothing happened but i just feel really hopeless and everything appears so grim. the feeling i get that i am fighting myself where┬áit’s a no win situation no matter what perspective i look at it. knowing what i need to do but still can’t do it is the hardest thing i have to swallow. as hard as this process is, it’s something no one can help me with and i must do it for myself. i better work hard to figure it out because time isn’t stopping for me. this is time for a self reflection and a true test of how badly i want it

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day 191 – stabbed in the heart

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the moments when you know you have been right all along and it just took someone the effort to simply ask for clarification rather than misinterpret and then wrongly accuse. the dissatisfaction of already taking the undeserving heat based on wrong accusation cannot be compensated and that whatever is said or done cannot be undone. this is what keeps me up at night and is directly related to my sleeplessness. truly disappointed of the whole situation but the only bright point i can take with me is knowing my intentions were clear from the beginning and never once doubted myself. at the end of the day, i am who i am