day 716 – take me back

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take me back home to where i belong. where the night meets the day seamlessly and not much could get in the way of me and my dreams. when i thought i had friends that would last forever and get me through tough times. what i dreamt i would accomplish and make a difference in this world. who i thought i would become to be strong enough to withstand. how i thought i would live my life, standing affront the beach and gazing out at sunset

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day 544 – fighting self

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it’s one of those days where nothing happened but i just feel really hopeless and everything appears so grim. the feeling i get that i am fighting myself where┬áit’s a no win situation no matter what perspective i look at it. knowing what i need to do but still can’t do it is the hardest thing i have to swallow. as hard as this process is, it’s something no one can help me with and i must do it for myself. i better work hard to figure it out because time isn’t stopping for me. this is time for a self reflection and a true test of how badly i want it

day 452 – bittersweet october

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these fall days are dreary, the hardest part is waking up in darkness and going home in darkness. vancouver’s fall season isn’t exactly welcoming; the sky is gloomy, the clouds are abundant, the rain falls heavy and temperature drops quickly. with what i can see outside the window, i cannot lie to myself but summer has left us behind and i cannot help but miss summer even more than before

day 392 – jailed

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how i wish i could be walking down this path on a nice evening like tonight. but was given instructions to stay out any activities for next few days. when physio says to rest, it must be severe because he knows how much moving around and continuing my activities means to me. needless to say, i will not be able to hit the tennis courts or the gym until the weekend or beyond