day 1225 – delivery

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as a treat for finishing my semester, i am delivered a sushi dinner. i was majorly stressed and overworked leading up to this day, but i am relieved of my duties of and sharing my happiness together. i haven’t had time to even sit at my desk chir much so i am really looking forward to going back to some routines. on the top of my priorities is sleep and a long, long to do list to catch up with

self satisfaction

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this post took far too long to write even though i knew exactly what i was thinking deep down. i’ve been reluctant partially because i didn’t know how to word it so not to come on too strong. i had a strong sense that the tide has been swaying and that certain things started to change as of late. i was beyond stressed and frustrated but sometimes i can’t differentiate whether the frustration was directed at myself or others. i’ve always been a big believer that if i believe in what i am doing, don’t let anything stop me. i have some big dreams and goals to reach and if i want to give myself the best chance, now is really the time to gear down to make it happen. some are baffled why i make the many sacrifices i do just to reach a dream that may seemingly be meaningless to them. of course i don’t expect many to agree with all the commitment and sacrifices, and some may never ever understand. only a selected few will understand what i am going through and support what i am aiming for. one being those with bottomless aspirations and endless beliefs. the other being those who have been to big stages alike. life of a competitive athlete is not easy as it requires many forms of sacrifices, determination and commitment. because of what is at stake, we must prioritize properly, be it skipping out on events, running on tight schedules, operating with little rest, or passing up on booze. i am spread very thin with a packed schedule, but believe me i’m trying my best to balance it all. my road isn’t a smooth walk in the park by all means because i have chosen a road less taken. i’d be most gratified to have my trusted peers in my journey as long as its free of judgement and negativity. in the meantime, i will keep pushing forward as long as i know what i am working towards, what it means to me and ultimately what makes me happy

resolution series: [twenty] happy

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people can be too judgmental and materialistic these days. yes it’s true, you can’t live without money, but you can’t live with happiness either; and the last time i checked, money can’t buy happiness. sometimes it is the little things in life that makes all the difference in the world.  even as simple as an act of kindness can go a long with in someone else’s life. the ultimate goal is living a happy life and getting what you want out of life. be who you are and don’t let anything change you. do the things you like and don’t let other people tell you otherwise. it’s your life after all, so it’s better to live the way you want than to have someone tell you how to live your life. there used to be so many negative people in my life that always told me what i couldn’t do and what not do to. that’s more reason to prove them wrong and make sure they don’t make such assumptions again. i like my sports and activities. i am also aware that i am made of glass and gets injured easily, but that doesn’t stop me cause that’s what makes me. through sports i find happiness; its my happy place whenever i need to destress or digress. also enjoy hanging out and chilling with my friends, trying new things, eat out, traveling, exploring the city and the world. these things make up me and i can’t imagine my life without them. i will continue to pursue my dreams and passion for as long as i can

胡鴻鈞 – 幸福

really like a handful of his songs to complement a very good voice, this one especially sticks for some reason. it’s on the mellow side, a bit of a change from the other upbeat tunes i like to listen to when at the gym. i never mind seeing his song pop up in my playlist during my drives, kind of like what the song suggests – happiness

resolution series: [four] passion

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twenties is often said to be prime time. it’s important time to figure out what you love and where your passion is at. if you don’t enjoy what you are doing, probably means it is time to rethink and explore your options. life is too short to dwell on what you must do on a daily basis, makes getting up every morning that much harder. it might be scary to realize you no longer love what you are currently doing, but it is better than realizing that now than in the next decade of your life. it may look like i knew what i wanted and where i was headed all along, but that’s not the case. it started off that way, but things change over time and sometimes the path may not be what you expected it to be. there are things i am certain about but there’s also a few things i have yet to figure out. i have a lot of self doubts and there’s no question i am afraid of failing to achieve what i set out to do, but it’s something i am working on. slowly but surely, i am beginning to find all the pieces to what i consider happiness. i like to travel, i like to eat, i like my gadget, i like the people i am surrounded by, and there’s no better place to live and do all that other than vancouver. i couldn’t be more certain about my passion and love for sports. being active is something i pride upon and definitely cannot live without. so no matter how many times i get injured or break myself, it doesn’t stop me from getting back at it even if everyone doesn’t agree with me. no matter what you do, do it with passion. life is a long journey, so make it worthwhile