day 2213 – term ends

i survived one of the busiest summer term in my years at killarney. taekwondo in general has taken a toll on me and given me a lot of pressure. past few weeks has been nothing but preparing my students for both the colour belt test and blackbelt test which takes place tomorrow and next sunday. i poured my heart and soul in preparing them, hoping that they can perform at their best. their test aside, i’m also thinking about a more daunting task and milestone for myself. a milestone that i do not feel prepared for because of the lack of guidance from the grandmaster. i know that i’ll have to gear down because the last thing i want is to disappoint

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self belief

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over the past week or so, i have been receiving ample of coaching, advice and prep talk on what it means to have proper mindset. the idea that i must head into each event with the confidence that i will nail my every move as i imagined it to be. i have been told i have total control over what i can give and what i can do. i have been told countless times that i need to believe in myself and trust my skills enough to let it do the talking. my body has done each move more than enough times where thinking does no good; all moves should now be second nature. i can’t reiterate how important it has been to have these prep talk and guidance to ensure my mind is in its right place. it really puts me in a more comfortable spot heading in, knowing i am mentally stable and ready to take on what’s ahead. i can walk into the competition believing they are right there with me every step of the way. it’s true i can’t control the end results, but i will take all the things they’ve tried to hammer into my mind and put it to heart. all i ask of myself is to go out on the big stage, give it everything i got and let the rest take care of itself. that alone, will make me proud for i have conquered and accomplished what i was never capable of before. this has got to be the strongest mentality i ever had going into a competition. they have done so much for me and been so patient with me over the last little while. they stuck with me through my toughest moments and did all they could to instill calmness back into my mind. i owe it to them to put forth my best effort and bring it home

day 821 – venting

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tonight called for some late night venting because there’s so much stress in and around my life at the moment that has been bottled up far too long. hoping these people who’s preceded me may have seen or experienced some of these issues before will have wise things to say. perhaps they can spark something in me or give me advice and shove me in the right path cause i am out of ideas

resolution series: [twentytwo] mentor

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the people i have been surrounded by have played a tremendous role in shaping me for who i am. they provided me with much guidance, endless advice and mentorship that influenced my growth as a human being. i have had many people guiding and pushing me every step of the way, either dragging me back on track whenever i stray away or making sure i don’t slack off when i shouldn’t be. i know for a fact, without the team behind the scenes attending to me when i fall apart, i probably wouldn’t be walking today. they have constantly given me motivations to train harder and train smarter to get better and get stronger. it is through them i learned that i must put in the work and work for what i want in order to continue playing the sports of my life. the coaches and teammates i’ve had the privilege of playing with and learning from also played a significant role. they have taught me the true meaning of teamwork, that we ought to work hard for each other. lots of credit goes to the instructors that inspired me and showed me to way to higher ground. i have come a long way from the beginning of my taekwondo journey, but i won’t stop knowing there’s still a long way to go to get to a level i never imagined i could be at. i am hoping one day i would be looked up upon, to be mentoring and inspiring others to become what they could never have imagined

 

resolution series

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starting a new series called resolution series inspired by an article based on 30 new year resolutions people in their 20’s should make or consider making to develop and prepare for the road ahead. the second decade of our lives is when we discover the most about ourselves as a human being, and learn to pave the road for what is to come in the future. this is the perfect opportunity to explore, experiment and experience all our options in shaping ourselves and becoming the person we want to be. there will be difficult times when it seems like there is insurmountable obstacles and challenges that lie between the start to finish line, but just know that it will be worth it in the end. i live by, and am always reminded, that when there is no pain, there is no gain. i hate thinking of the regrets in the past so here i am trying to take my life by the horn and live life to its fullest without regrets. i cherish all those that have entered my life and made a positive impact in all ways possible and i hope i have impacted other’s lives likewise. without your support, patience and guidance through all the ups and downs, i would not have the strength and motivation to continually make improvements. you listened to me when i vented, you lifted me when i fell, you held me together when i cried and ultimately showed me the meaning to true love and friendship. i am grateful for who i have become but i am not satisfied with where i am at. it’s never too late to make resolutions and changes towards a better me