setting up to finish the year strong with an organized workstation, organized priorities, and organized mindset. the new year will bring many new changes and growth for some of us in the design department. the manager already informed the team leads to expect more responsibilities; i’ll have a team of my own to manage. eleven months ago, new manager said he believes i can go as far with my hardwork. my role has grown quite a bit since, but expect that next year will have a drastic change in growing up and stepping up in this organization
wrapping up august with a satisfying workout and some intense rolling. the month has flown by so fast and today’s weather tells me summer season won’t last. reflecting on the month, i have made plenty of progress both physically and mentally, and in turn grown as a person. i have a lot to be thankful for, those who didn’t give up on me. i found that if i put my mind to something, i surprise myself and don’t always lose to my own expectations. the self realizations doesn’t end here, it’s only the beginning. stay tuned for the months to come on my journey to finding myself
lately i have been stuck in a rut fighting myself, losing my sense of direction and not knowing what i want to do with my life. i would carry on and beat myself up, then question whether my existence is meaningless. that’s not to say i have figured everything out, but i have decided to stop beating myself up and believing i am worthless. point is, i need to correct those behaviours because it would only hurt myself and hurting myself is hurting the loved ones around me; i hate to see others get hurt. i do feel apologetic for being silent and quiet about my problems, perhaps i am not quite good at sharing my troubled thoughts. i don’t mean to make you guys worry. it won’t change overnight, but i’ll try harder to be more open and vocal about what goes on inside my head. it’s time to realize i am not suppose to settle to be an average person, just like the millions of other human beings on earth. it’s time to step up my game and live up to expectations and chase my own dreams. doing so is nerve wrecking, but that’s the only way to grow as a person and expand on what i have already accomplished. i know that whichever path i choose to take, i will have the support of those around me. i want the supporters in my life to know that i was born for a reason
traveling back to year 2011 when a group of rowdy hamberites made a trip out to los angeles and disneyland. it captured many of the good times that we shared, and sometimes i look back and wonder why life was so much easier back then. so much has changed since this trip; people come and go but some hamberites will always stick together. can’t wait until we have our next hamberite reunion trip
fiddling with whatever i can get a hold of as the chat continued through the night. sometimes i need distractions to stay involved in a coversation. had an interesting conversation with really self driven and motivated people that’s always looking for ways to make an impact. the conversation made me think about things in a different perspectives and made me wonder if i would thrive with the same drive. what they taught me was you must first and foremost love what you do because there’s no purpose or reason in life without passion
aside from burnaby public library, i don’t think i have ever seen toilets specifically sized for kids. i have outgrown those days of my dad driving me to burnaby library on the weekends. i am growing up inevitably and must work to pave the present and future days. a little inspiration on hump day doesn’t hurt; helps get me through the day and onwards with the rest of the week
each year there are many birthdays to celebrate, my mom, dad, brother, friends, coworkers, and of course my own. each and every year as it gets closer to my birthday, i start to feel a little more stressed knowing time is passing me by quicker than i can imagine. it scares me watching the time go by so fast and soon i will be at another stage in life. but before then there’s a lot more other things to worry about. for instance, school is up, what’s next?? what will my future hold, how will my career turn out, what will my relationship status be, how will i be able to cope with all these changes?? so many questions and so many unanswered questions waiting to be answered. in school we were given answer keys to determine whether we have the right or wrong answers; in life, that’s rarely the case. at this point in life, there are so many open ended questions and little knowledge of where to find the answers. this is when quarter life crisis kicks in and gets the best of us. i am no master at dealing with this, as i, myself, am still trying to figure things out. all i can say is take life as it is given, things start off with lots of uncertainties, but as time goes by, it will start to clear up. i’ve always been told everything will be okay in the end; if it’s not okay, its not the end.