day 1565 – presentation centre 

sales centre hopping has me drooling over cool models and showroom space. i need to start being proactive with my search as i continue to build on self investment and gain value in life. it’s about time to get serious again about the phenomenon of investment and building my the asset checklist i’ve urned. i have no doubt that one day, a piece of that will be mine. it’s a good feeling i’m inching closer to the ambitious goal i once made a commitment to. knowing where i’m going is a good feeling to have and it’s a main reason why i work as hard as i do

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day 1211 – on the line

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a weary week it has been with added stress and commotion. i’ve handled them myself to the best of my ability and dealt with them with a sense of urgency. i live through my passion that others may not see value or significance in. no one will understand how and why some things can impact me so much, but i’ll keep fighting for what i believe in and hope that one day they see it too. extremely relieved that i completed some tests and great to see that i can be a contender too; glad to know i’m wanted somewhere. i’m proud that i’m strong enough to stick with it

day 676 – belt stitching

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my new belt came in today nice and stiff. it’s not much different than my previous belt, just a little darker shade of black than my worn one with a nice tint of faded black. it will still take some time to break into and get used to it and i must admit i do miss the feeling of my second dan belt. this is the beginning of another stage with lots of learning and growing to be done before i can say its fully earned. i will stay humble and continue to learn and train even harder

resolution series: [fifteen] confidence

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i have never been a confident person and i still am not, but i have taken strides in this area. i have very high expectations for myself; the fearful part is when i do not meet those standards, it becomes detrimental to my already lacking and wavering confidence level. playing on teams definitely helped just knowing my teammates will always be there to back me up. i have been fortunate to be a part of numerous teams with awesome teammates that support each other so well and prides in teamwork and team building activities. team chemistry plays a big role in bringing home championships – i experienced that first hand. becoming a part of the vdl exec team has made me more vocal; part of the package requires speaking in front of large groups of people, constantly meeting new people and putting myself out there in a bigger community. taekwondo has provided me more than i could have ever imagined. having met a close knit family where we train together and sweat together. through instructing, competing and demonstrating, it has forced me to speak and demonstrate in front of students, parents and spectators alike. i am glad that many moons ago, my instructor pushed me out into competition because it has been, by far, the biggest difference maker. being alone in the ring with all eyes watching can be fearful as hell but when time comes i have no choice and just have to go on stage and finish what i started. no doubt i have gained a lot experience, respect and approval through being both an instructor and a competitor, but that also comes with responsibility and pressure. not only have i developed my own standard that i must live up to, but others also have high expectations for me that i’d hate to disappoint. all of these undertakings were a leap of faith that required me to step out of my comfort zone and into a completely new territory not knowing what to expect. from a person who is unwilling to speak up, i have evolved to being capable of stepping up in front of large crowds and audiences. this is not to say i am comfortable being in the spotlight because i still get nervous every single time, but at least i am willing to take that step forward. even today i still shy away from attention and hide in the background. i am still quiet by nature, and only when i feel comfortable around you will i start to open up and express myself. that’s when you will get to know me better as a person, my values, the driving force and reasons behind the things i do. there’s a lot hiding inside if you manage to crack my shell

day 332 – live and learn

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important to live life to its fullest to avoid the could haves and should haves. stop at nothing even if it hurts and never give up even if there’s only a glimpse of hope. we are learning each and every day for as long as we live and until the day we die, because that’s the only way to get better and i have no intention to stay where i am forever

day 250 – flyknit

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behold the new addition to my shoe collection, nike free 5.0 flyknit. super cool kicks that looks and feels like a sock which is contoured to my feet, super light weight, flexible, and sick looking. after all these years of loving adidas, i am beginning to be more accepting to adding nike to my growing collection because these frees are simply irresistibly cool