a day after a hit my squat pr at an unexpected time, doms has taken control over and my legs are out of commission. i longed to reach my peak again and kin forced it to happen. he said that’s enough of plateau and wanted to break it for me. i’m glad he cracked me cause i would never have made the bold move myself. hope this is the first and my other personal best will be coming once i am completely out of rehab
over the past week or so, i have been receiving ample of coaching, advice and prep talk on what it means to have proper mindset. the idea that i must head into each event with the confidence that i will nail my every move as i imagined it to be. i have been told i have total control over what i can give and what i can do. i have been told countless times that i need to believe in myself and trust my skills enough to let it do the talking. my body has done each move more than enough times where thinking does no good; all moves should now be second nature. i can’t reiterate how important it has been to have these prep talk and guidance to ensure my mind is in its right place. it really puts me in a more comfortable spot heading in, knowing i am mentally stable and ready to take on what’s ahead. i can walk into the competition believing they are right there with me every step of the way. it’s true i can’t control the end results, but i will take all the things they’ve tried to hammer into my mind and put it to heart. all i ask of myself is to go out on the big stage, give it everything i got and let the rest take care of itself. that alone, will make me proud for i have conquered and accomplished what i was never capable of before. this has got to be the strongest mentality i ever had going into a competition. they have done so much for me and been so patient with me over the last little while. they stuck with me through my toughest moments and did all they could to instill calmness back into my mind. i owe it to them to put forth my best effort and bring it home
a series of crazy and unfortunate events that occurred the past couple weeks really put my progress to a halt and even taken many unwanted steps backwards. now that the results have come back negative and clears me for my activities again, i have no excuse to go anywhere but forward. now that i am back on my two feet and with much more reassurance, rehab needs to start immediately and i can’t sit around and wait any longer for things to come to me. it’s never enough to speak of it, actions are required. if i am hungry for it, just go out and get what i want, a simple theory that tends to elude me. it is a very simple process of setting a long term goal, and never stop chasing it until you can grasp it with your own two hands. until that day i meet the standards set, i will not be proud of myself. i am tired of being the old me that only wished but never worked hard for them. now it’s time to work my ass off for no one but myself, i am ready to create v2.0
things in life that’s worth working for is rarely easy, but it’s these things that makes life interesting. it’s only human nature to give up when things get hard. it’s even easier for one to feel deflated and hopeless when life becomes more of a struggle. but just because things aren’t going our way now, doesn’t mean they will stay that way. it’s in your own control to turn things around one hundred eighty degrees and make it how you want it to be. starting something is never easy, but keeping up with it is even more difficult. the decision is made, i am about to take on a challenge that feels a little daunting with a lot of self doubts but i think once i persevere through that, i would come out a stronger and better person. eager to started because once i get my feet wet, there’s no turning back. it’s just another character building challenge with lots to prove and lots to gain. this will be an evaluation of how much i want it and how much i am willing to stick with it
so this is the big stage at oregon convention centre. it’s my day to go out and prove to everyone what i am made of and i didn’t disappoint. i shone today as i stepped out onto the mats, took care of business and couldn’t be any happier with the results. i came out a gold medallist for pair poomsae and a silver medallist for individual poomsae. the morning seemed to go on forever with long waits and delays between my two events, that i didn’t even get a chance to eat lunch. but it’s all over and guess what, i will be bringing home some hardware
when times get rough and life gets tough, i try to remind myself that it’s only training me to be stronger for tomorrow. if the road to success was plain and simple, it would not be worth the sweat and hard work. understand that no matter what happens, there will be someone out there watching over you and ready to give you support when you most need it. and know that someone will be there to catch you when you fall, but ultimately its up to you yourself to stand back up and carry on. i know very well that if i stick with it and put in the effort, its just a matter of time before i get the results i want. it’s all about taking the necessary steps knowing everyday i will be stronger than the day before. because nothing beats being able to do something i couldn’t do yesterday and only i can change that
another competition group picture worth sharing. after claiming our bling at governor’s cup in washington last week, master shin greeted us to congratulate our success and invited us to pan-am next month. we certainly turned some heads and opened some eyes while we were there and that’s what we really need. in my opinion and of my own interest, it is important for us to put our names and faces out there beyond the province of british columbia. if we want to grow as a school, as a team and as an individual, we must get to know the people out there and make them notice us. washington was a good start; we have lots on our plate, next up oregon.