day 2362 – tricks and kicks

i’ve, for the longest time, avoided training kicks at tricking because i’m really scared to find out i won’t be able to kick ever again. ever since i found out the real truth about my ankle, i’ve been really down just thinking how much that will affect all the things i love to do. i’ve since learnt that i will still be able to train certain things back if i rehab it properly. i want to make it a priority to rehab properly and train kicks because it’s quite unacceptable if i don’t have some kicks. i started with cheat 720 and backside 900 tonight and i’ll keep drilling it until i get them

2019 year at a glance

the recap of the past 365 days could easily be all negative, but instead of going down the rabbit hole of saying everything that went wrong, i also want to recap on all the things that went right. sure, my ankle injury cost me nine months of the year to diagnosis, but it didn’t stop me from carrying out the things i can still do. weightlifting was a big plus this year for i joined apex and dove back into olympic lifting. i got pretty good progress despite the many physical road blocks; a seventeen kilo improvement and making the yellow plates for a personal best. in the mere two months i was introduced to clean and jerk techniques, i’m happy to be just shy of the blue plates. tricking has caused me the most grief. there were so many flips and tricks i wanted to land, but couldn’t mostly because my injuries didn’t allow me to do things i should be able to. i’ll have to accept the fact there’ll be some specific moves i’ll never be able to do again, forever. i had a serious debate inside telling me to quit because everyone has given up on me, even me. at one point i had a deadline in mind to land one of the three moves i’ve been working on. low and behold, i did not land one, but i’m urged to give it a little more time because i’m really close. taekwondo became really stressful having to train a new set of teaching staff. i never once thought i’d test for my fourth degree, especially not with the ankle i was on. sports aside, i also traveled to europe, met some new people, got rid of toxic ones, changed departments and tried new things. i had some very low moments throughout this year where i really wanted to give up, but i kept my head up as hard as it was. i told myself because i never have up, 2020 will be the year for me where everything will fall into place and it’s my year to shine

day 1616 – lift game

first day of work really means first day of work both at the office and at the gym. i have come to a place to start strong, finish strong to become strong. lifting became a habit in the past years and it’s a lifestyle i wouldn’t want it to be otherwise. it’s the place that acts as an outlet, where i can be myself because this is like home. the home away from home where i work away building my temple day by day, night by night. i’m nowhere near where i want to be yet but i will be here improving myself for as long as i can

day 1449 – platform

working on the timing of my high pull now that i can get back to doing full cleans. each rehab session is challenging but offers so much more than just regaining what i had lost. i get worked quite hard each time; my shirt is drenched in sweat by the end, but i like that it keeps me on my toes. my kineis plays a big part in fast tracking me to regain my strength and form. he along with chiro is building me stronger a better for the progress that’s expected to come. best of all, i no longer feel like the remnants of my accident  hinders my body from doing my activities. i just need to work on and take care of the injuries i have racked up as of late

day 1433 – rehab progress

img_20200130_2145592834883669820100762.jpghad trouble falling asleep last night after one day of sleeping in. it’s stat but up early and in the office for half day to get some work done before rehab and stuff. the moment when i tell my kineis my legs are sore and he assigns me paused squats. the sessions are going well and i do feel i’m improving quickly. i like what i’m learning and it gives me a lot to work with. he definitely worked me pretty hard today but i like how he’s pushing me when he sees that i can get better quicker. he’s realized he can throw me into the deep end and i’ll swim

day 1294 – vday special

img_20200204_1635005981641568646211686.jpgit was an eventful day at the office with a brief afternoon team building event. my legs are sore from the weekend seminar, but gladly stopped by st edwards’s and worked them some more. nothing special for a vday, just a simple day spent sharing a bubble tea at the end of the day. today is an exception where i allow myself to indulge on food i can’t normally have. i’ll just eat sparingly and do extra to work it off. this one briefly poked his face into mine on this special day of ours; going strong at eleven

day 1279 – dodgeball night

red pockets up for grab at rdl because we wanted to share the joy of chinese new year. i fell to a low point yesterday, but i rebooted and had a good start to the week. it helps as i’m transitioning into a new program. day one felt a lot better and stronger than what i had on paper. i’m proud that i could withstand whatever came at me and i can’t wait to see how far this program will take me

day 1268 – baby steps

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i am so happy i finally made the two plate club for deads. it was a long time coming; i came close six weeks ago but injuries plagued me. all the baby steps i have taken to get back makes this milestone that much more rewarding. it happened all because you once told me you believed i could, so i took your words to heart and worked at it. i’m encouraged because of your encouraging words. just goes to show how powerful words can be and a little positive vibe can get me farther than i thought i could

building 2017

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2016 was one heck of a crazy roller coaster ride. the past twelve months gave me ample opportunities to experience more of what life is about. i found myself in the darkest moments where i shut myself off from the world, fluctations and eating problems ensued. i managed to dig deep with the support of my close ones, and got myself back together. nothing came easy as nothing worth achieving ever comes easy. behind closed doors, i fought many battles that no one knew about, but the most important thing is i never gave up on myself. i came to realization that i don’t want to remain stagnant and don’t want to remain the same so i took on some challenges. i defined what my goals were and was proactive in taking the necessary steps to get myself there. through the hard times i gained a lot of knowledge and strength that no doubt made a better me. it made me realize i’m much stronger than i think i am and need to get even stronger to withstand. i’m much closer to where i want to be but i’m not where i want to be yet. i’m still working on becoming the best version of myself

finished 2016 on a high note and looking to build a strong 2017 with bigger and more ambitious goals. it’s time to take it up a notch or even two and fulfill whatever my heart desires

  • stay as healthy and as injury-free as possible
  • train smarter and eat properly with sufficient sleep
  • be more disciplined and focused towards my goals
  • continue to work on my confidence level
  • love myself for who i am
  • communicate more with family and friends
  • explore the world and expand my horizon
  • attain supplementary diploma
  • appreciate being a workaholic, but also appreciate the little things
  • save up for the number game
  • revisit photography
  • do more of what sets my heart on fire

i’m pumped to make the next twelve months the best months i’ve ever had. find my strong. it’s now or never

2016 year at a glance

a look back at the highlights and lowlights of the past 365 days captivated by my carl zeiss lens. a lot has happened and all these snapshots are like puzzle pieces that write my story. 2016 was a year soul searching, a year of adventure and a year of realization. life was pretty grim at times; but it’s how i overcame these hurdles that sets me apart from who i was before. i’ve worked hard and learned a lot about myself and the others around me. i learned that sometimes i need to be selfish because i didn’t love myself for who i was. i learned to carry my own weight. i finally broke out from a plateau and figured out some things; things are starting to click and showing signs of progression. i am excited for the turn of the calendar year because 2017 will be a year of building upon what i have achieved and want to achieve. i’m more than ready to make the necessary adaptations to become the best version of myself and i want my dearests to be there by my side