day 1665 – propensity 


staying true to my words, i made an appointment to have my physio tend to all my aggravated body parts. i’ve had continuous overload of activities as of late which has been taxing in on my body. my trusted physio basically went full body adjusting my thumb, wrist, neck, back, tailbone and ankle. before getting fixed, i was with my kinesiologist who once again challenged me with another of his newly invented exercise and then revisited one i found difficult last time around. i felt like i was circus in training, working on stability with two balls and discs. surprisingly what was hard the first time is no longer hard anymore

day 1440 – plating

my kineis put one plate heavy squats on the rehab menu and i delivered. he was impressed, and i was sort of too; he even said he underestimated me all this time. my squats felt pretty good today despite my head feeling really off from the moment i woke up at 6am. work was especially busy as i have a deadline this week; downed a few advils and onwards with work. geared down and pushed through the rest of work, tutor, meeting and then rehab. i feel a lot better halfway through my rehab stint; my body is more intact and stable as opposed to a wreck eight weeks ago

day 1238 – physio fix

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i needed this physio visit badly enough to call for an emergency appointment. my chest and back was feeling slightly improved upon waking up but still much too impaired. when physio pressed against my ribs and collar bone, i was in a lot of discomfort and couldn’t grasp for air. i know i still need more rest; i’ll take it day by day and feel optimistic that this will get better soon. for all the years he’s treated me, he still shakes his head at me and occasionally scolds me, but is never surprised with what kind of injuries i put up with

resolution series: [twentyeight] pity

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everyone has their own problems to deal with, some less complex than others. there’s no secret that i have been plagued with endless injuries throughout my life. i have given up on trying to hide that, because i have learned that patchwork only makes it go away on the superficial level. unfortunately that’s just temporary fix and will keep piling on to account for greater problems. i simply cannot live without the sports and activities which i play, for it is the passion of my life. it won’t be forever, but it is my choice to continue playing and practicing them for as long as i can manage. i do intend on doing everything i can within my powers to do my rehab and maintenance work. my main focus is on getting better and stronger every single day; always be a better version of myself. don’t question my will to strive for what i want just because you have it easier. don’t question my passion to always stay hungry and carry on even when nothing goes my way. don’t question how big my heart is when you don’t know how much pain i have endured. don’t question my toughness if you don’t know what i experienced because very few people have a clue how much work, time, energy and commitment i put into making all this possible. standing on my own two feet was never a given to me, but i learn to be grateful for all the times i can. sometimes i sit alone thinking to myself i don’t deserve to be dealing with all these mishaps and i certainly don’t deserve your bashing or judgement. i need not your pity nor your approval for what i have to go through as i result of what i do. i was given this life and these obstacles because i could handle it. i appreciate those who’s helped me out along the way, it’s meant the world to me. if you have nothing good to say, don’t speak