shaping 2018

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2017 was challenging that staggered between many emotions, some happy, some successful, some difficult, some burdensome and some heartbreaking moments. i was struck by my most depressing moments that resulted in bottling up emotions where self destruction happened. underneath the outer shell, was three hundred and sixty five days of constant battle that left many unseen scars. after this three hundred sixty five day battle, i came to realize i had ample growth: grew stronger, became braver, gained experience and expanded my knowledge. the struggles gave me a different perspective in life, the achievements gave me hope to to continue to climb. life is a journey defined by how well one copes after being knocked down. looking forward into the next twelve months, i’ll regroup and pull myself together to find my strong. i’m a fighter and won’t stop short of reaching my goal. as long as i stay strong, keep grinding and never settle for less than my full potential. life is about betterment and i’m committed to being the strongest version of myself

the latter part of 2017 wasn’t the best of days and was a true test of patience. the long drought, the fluctuating health, the seesawing emotions were all big obstacles, but i made sure all loose ends were closed. waving 2017 goodbye knowing 2018 has much more for me in store

  • get back healthy and stay as injury-free as possible
  • consistent training and eating with proper sleep
  • step up my game and take it to the next level
  • setting my priorities and boundaries
  • love myself for who i am, love my family, love my friends
  • stay focused towards advancement
  • attain more designations
  • save up for the numbers game
  • explore and travel the world
  • devote more time on what sets my heart on fire
  • step out of my comfort zone and expand my horizon
  • acknowledge being a workaholic but appreciate the little things

i’m ready to start 2018 off strong and be the stubborn goal digger that i am. just remember the best has yet to come

day 1279 – dodgeball night

red pockets up for grab at rdl because we wanted to share the joy of chinese new year. i fell to a low point yesterday, but i rebooted and had a good start to the week. it helps as i’m transitioning into a new program. day one felt a lot better and stronger than what i had on paper. i’m proud that i could withstand whatever came at me and i can’t wait to see how far this program will take me

day 1268 – baby steps

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i am so happy i finally made the two plate club for deads. it was a long time coming; i came close six weeks ago but injuries plagued me. all the baby steps i have taken to get back makes this milestone that much more rewarding. it happened all because you once told me you believed i could, so i took your words to heart and worked at it. i’m encouraged because of your encouraging words. just goes to show how powerful words can be and a little positive vibe can get me farther than i thought i could

day 1094 – recondition

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getting up is what happens after falling down. restarting today is the best choice because focusing on my journey and devoting more time on myself is vital to a healthier and happier me. going into the gym and lifting usually makes my day better. today was no different as i surprisingly upped my deadlift numbers. i learned that i can’t do everything alone; sometimes opening up and turning to others¬†helps me better manage my stress. my journey is not going to be easy, but i look forward to improving and picking up a few new things¬†every step of the way

day 950 – monday hustle

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monday stats are usually outrageous, today was no different despite barely regaining my normal capacity. if asked, at the beginning of today, if i could have achieved these numbers by the end of the day, i would have thought that was a preposterously impossible. in fact i was just aiming to make it through training and dodgeball without collapsing. it feels amazing my output was far beyond what my mind thought i could muster. i’m glad i was pushed to work my butt off and make that stats line. i’ll feel the effects tomorrow but it’s definitely worth every ounce of sweat and effort put forth today

day 947 – feeling chubs

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the impact of not hitting the gym, not playing dodgeball, not tumbling and simply not doing my regular human things is far beyond significant. i can already feel like i’ve gained too much over the past three days. i didn’t care if i collapsed at the gym; i needed to go. there’s no excuse to let it back track, knowing so. there’s no better time than today, it’s time to step out of dormancy and play my part. taking back the reins of my journey towards the goals i have set

day 795 – weekend warrior

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feeling like a weekend warrior so i woke up early for a brief tennis session followed by gym. i am sick, but that doesn’t really stop me much, or at all. all this was completed before noon so onwards with the rest of my day. i miss going to this place so much but i know i will be back and need to be back much more consistently. my schedule this fall season just got a lot busier in a hurry but i wouldn’t complain because as long as my body can handle it, i will do it