day 2296 – missing me

this is an extreme pessimism post because i’ve seriously had enough everything. there’s so much i miss about this. i miss being able to move without so much pain and limitations. i miss being the fittest, strongest and best shape of my life. i miss doing backflips, kicks and flips at will. i miss playing hockey and dodgeball with all my teammates. i miss the soreness that came after every lifting and training session. i miss being able to jump and climb onto anything i wanted to. i miss the summer sunshine and being outdoors until night. i miss doing everything i can’t do at the moment

day 2237 – clean reached

when i first started learning to olympic lift with jae three years ago, i wished to one day full clean one plate. i never got close before took a break and only restarted with apex the start of this year. through these eight months, there’s been steady progress in both snatches and cleans while solidifying my squat strength. what i thought was a lost goal was made true today and i couldn’t be more happy to share it with my coaches who helped me along the way. this is obviously just a milestone with much more to come

day 2190 – pr clean

since i’m expecting deloading week to come soon, i just went for it. this would be the heaviest clean i’ve ever done and i’m truly proud of it. in the past i’ve only hovered around one hundred fifteen, rarely get into the twenties because i struggled to get out of the bottom position. my front squat have improved so much since joining apex that this weight was easily handled. i have had my eyes set on the one plate ever since i started getting the hang of olympic cleans, but who knows, maybe one day i can even make the reds

day 2188 – snatch fail

my muscle snatches was in great form from the start of the workout. this is a good sign when the plan was to test for my current max. i made it all the way to two kilograms shy of my personal best before failing two in a row. i put everything into the final snatch and finally redeemed myself. it was then time to test max paused front squat. i easily hit one plate which was surprised me, but stopped at that because of time and volume constraints. i’m still happy walking away today with both the forty kilo snatch and one plate paused front squat

day 2169 – nash cleans

i haven’t stepped into a steve nash for a long time because of so many things: busy schedule, membership issues, vacation, injuries, fatigue and general laziness. the slacking at nash must end and i was determined to crush the workout the moment i walked in. did my usual thursday lifts in order from cleans, backs squats, bench press and rows. being off this workout for some time, i stayed with some conservative weights but definitely should up it next time

day 2166 – eating discipline

second week into the thirteen week self challenge and i’m doing a much better job than the first week. i turned down the cupcake because i knew i would have serious regrets if i had consumed that. it’s hard road ahead and lots of things to be enticed by, but i’m no stranger to this type of challenge. i must stay on track and stay disciplined for what i really want; not for some short-lived satisfaction

day 2098 – shaky

i’m not going to lie. i feeling pretty depleted after today’s workout session. for the first time at apex, i failed to hit my pre-programmed weights. i missed a number of snatches and fell short of the weight i was suppose to lift for both my snatches and front squats. i’m not going to lie, i saw the weights set in my program and immediately felt intimidated. of the missed snatches, i didn’t give the effort to fight for the hold. though i was three pounds short of my one forty five squats, i’m still pretty excited to have a small increase from last week