day 2307 – finger splint

a splint on my finger is so suffocating and inconvenient. i hate how it’s so restrictive it is and how it prevents the swelling and bruising to dissipate. i get that i need to protect it when i’m out and around people, but whenever i’m by myself, i would try to remove it to let it air out. i know this is only week one, but hopefully i can get rid of this splint sooner than three weeks

day 2306 – finger fractured

checkininto burnaby hospital yet again. i’ve had far too many hospital and clinic visits in the past month. what i feared last night is confirmed by xrays. my middle finger needs to be splinted for a couple weeks. it’s been that kind of a month, not only does my foot not work properly, now my hand is also disabled. how can i not be disappointed one after the other, but i hope by staying positive, it can help with the recovery process

day 879 – fisting

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for the first time in two weeks, i can finally fully close my hand to make a fist. it’s by no means comfortable in that position and it’s trying to resist that motion, but just being able to do so painfree is a huge breakthrough. fifteen days of not being able to close my hand cost me many days of missed but necessary training. even though my gyming continued, lots had to be forfeited or altered to compensate for the finger. i never realized how essential fisting was, but it became hard learned knowledge

day 870 – check in with physio

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physio needed to see me and i needed to see physio to assess and treat that finger and other banged up body parts of mine before he goes on vacation. i am very relieved when he said he’s almost certain it’s not a fracture and just a terrible sprain. although i am disappointed when he said i should still continue to wear the splint whenever possible. he didn’t even bother stopping me from doing my sports cause he knows me well enough to understand that’s not going to happen. the new kinesiologist shadowing today had little clue of what exercises i am usually given, so it was a chill day until the regular stepped in and changed all that. it’s the post physio blenz remedy i enjoy every time

day 869 – by the litre

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i don’t drink much water or liquid in a day but i was up very late trying to down this bottle of litre water cause i said i would. so i fell off the track this week due to the uncertainties surrounding my finger which is ultimately the deciding factor for my next competition. i was very down and worried to say the least but only bottle up all those stresses and downplayed it as much as possible so not to let others worry. the past four days have been horrible; i spent much time being stressed and depressed, and couldn’t will myself to do anything. enough of being a pessimist, no matter what my physio says tomorrow, i am going to get myself back on track at being the best that i should be. don’t write me off until physio gives me the verdict. but even then, just because i don’t go to this competition, doesn’t mean i give up on my next competition

day 868 – finger fix

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just trying to get help for my finger by having an acupuncturist poke me repeatedly with needles. in order to decrease the swelling and bruising, draining some blood out of my finger is a must. she told me it’d hurt a little and that i will lose six to seven drops of blood; she told me not to panic, and i didn’t. maybe it’s the fact that i didn’t, that she decided she’d go through the process twice. i would admit it was painful especially having her squeeze it out, but i am disappointed i didn’t lose twelve droplets nor did i manage to get good snapchat footage of the process

day 865 – emergencies

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spending sunday morning at mount saint joseph emergency wasn’t the plan but it happened. woke up uber early to door crash the hospital and still had to spend over two hours taking xrays to find out my finger fracture is still inconclusive. the doctor gave me a splint and told me to take more xrays next week. i tend to disobey medical instructions so i would much rather not wear it, and still trying to think of alternatives to get out of this splint cause it’s very restricting to my activities. if it’s indeed fractured or severely injured, i’d feel super deflated cause i can’t afford to take time off training. this would be a huge blow to me and my dreams at the most inopportune time