day 1112 – unavailing

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not sure why getting out of bed was so difficult this morning but from the moment i climbed out of bed this morning, i was already feeling a little off. i started the day later than usual so everything was delayed. trying to get my work done in compressed time but the whole day has been unproductive. couldn’t get work done at home so tried mcdonalds but still not much got done. deadlines are approaching, need to get down to business or else my to do list will keep piling up

day 998 – under serving

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some days i feel out of it and today is one of them where i am just really not feeling coaching and training. being at taekwondo made me sad on this day because i am struggling to find the motivation to pick myself up. the competition week is fast approaching and my preparedness is far from being competition ready. this is a big one, but my a-game is nowhere to be found. all i want to do in avoid thinking about it and hope it gets out of my head. i know this can’t continue and i am searching for a fix

day 620 – cardio mode

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after having early morning saturday, my mind and body wasn’t up for more 8am exercise on sunday. somehow i still found a way to get my sorry butt on the treadmill this evening. the vancouver sunrun is exactly a week away, so if not now, then when?? i guess after tonights run, it’s time to taper off and rest up by so i don’t over exert myself before the actual run

day 544 – fighting self

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it’s one of those days where nothing happened but i just feel really hopeless and everything appears so grim. the feeling i get that i am fighting myself where it’s a no win situation no matter what perspective i look at it. knowing what i need to do but still can’t do it is the hardest thing i have to swallow. as hard as this process is, it’s something no one can help me with and i must do it for myself. i better work hard to figure it out because time isn’t stopping for me. this is time for a self reflection and a true test of how badly i want it

day 524 – portfolio deadlines

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it’s the final stretch of applications so really got to push through no matter how tired i am. a night of being productive in making more progress on portfolio and trying to contain my stress level and get everything seemingly under my control even when that’s impossible. just have to persuade myself exhaustion is only temporary and will get my much needed rest when it’s all over

day 522 – stress therapy

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too stressed out lately with all that school work, applications and deadlines coming up in a hurry. getting my stress therapy so i can regroup before i snap and lose my mind. i have come to realize this is one of my happy place where i can be alone in my own little world. so glad i have an outlet because i know this place is where i can get away from the busyness of my hectic life

day 514 – addicting games

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once i learned how to play this game, i have spent a good chunk of my waking hour playing this game. it’s become a pretty bad addiction in the past twenty four hours and i just can’t stop playing to better my score or just play for the sake of playing. the only argument i can make to feel less guilty is this game requires the use of strategies and some forms of math