day 1506 – grandma’s arm

my grandma is over ninety but probably healthier than me even before i turned nineteen. rarely has she made my family worry, but today i received bad news that she broke her arm from a fall. i’m worried that she’s suffering in pain, that she can’t take care of herself, that she wants my father by her side. she needs to go through a procedure and what she needs most is care that i cannot provide her. i just can’t rest easy knowing what she is going through and can only wish i could take it for her

day 571 – victimized

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i was the chosen one to partner with someone for their self defense portion of their first and second dan blackbelt test and it was no fun at all. at the end of the night, i have breakfallen, rolled and been thrown over forty times and even sidekicked in the chest. never before have i fallen that many times in a day, i feel like all my internal organs have been rearranged in every possible way. it was a long and tiring day, teaching by the morning and blackbelt test by night. it’s not whether my back and neck will be sore tomorrow, it’s how sore

day 77 – so this is autumn

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first signs of tree leaves turning red is the season that bridges my favourite season summer and the cold winter. this is the season of endless leaves falling and endless leaves raking. it’s all well when its sunny until autumn really hits and the rain start coming and making wet leaves a pain in the neck