day 1730 – ramen fuel

chomping down ramen for fuel and fire after taekwondo do and before a night of dodgeball. there’s all the reason for my teammates to bet on me tonight, but i didn’t disappoint. i needed some dodgeball fix, not to mention i didn’t want to miss two weeks in a row. the showdown that i won today is quite the battle; one that i can stand tall with. i played relatively well tonight considering the circumstances i had to face. i just need to rectify that very little stands between me and sports. one thing to figure out how in the world i can better grip the ball; my grip will have to adapt to something else 

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after getting some unexpected news on unreasonable competition policy and feeling rather disheartened, i have really let it slip and fallen off the tracks completely. at a point where i am getting the feeling i am on the verge of giving up and hanging it up because it no longer satisfies me the way it used to. maybe i am feeling the pressure of all the expectations and i worry i won’t live up to it. or it could be the preposterous conditions and requirements the school is imposing that’s making me feel like they are denying our opportunities to grow and improve. it scares me to have the feeling that the competition doesn’t mean as much to me anymore because my interest doesn’t lie within the provinicial level. i don’t want to lose sight of the intended goals and give up on the things i have been striving for all this time because i am not ready to let it end. given the circumstances and the time constraints i have to work with, i can’t afford to have any off days that will ultimately put me two steps back each time. really needing a little push to get back in the groove, because it’s coming up so soon and time is a pressing issue. it’s a challenge i will have to face and push through the mind block no matter how much i disagree with their decision