day 800 – birthday mom

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celebrating one of the many special days of the year, but the person i celebrate it for and with doesn’t get any more important. happy birthday to my dearest mom, who works tirelessly to make each and every one of my day as smooth as it could be. a lot of times i overlook the little expressions and actions that could go a long way to making you realize how much you mean to me. do know that i appreciate every little thing you do for me and every moment spent together is quality time i cherish. and sometimes i just fail to express how i love you so. here’s to another great year ahead and many more to come. perfect way to make it my blog’s 800th day post. i have had a lot of pleasure writing all my posts and revisiting my posts to see where i have been and where i have come

resolution series: [seventeen] communicate

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the advancement in the technological world has brought us wonders, many of which we never thought possible a decade ago. technology is great when it comes to connectivity and communication. getting up to date has never been easier and getting news out through the ever growing number of social media platforms has never been so convenient. but sometimes it just doesn’t get the message across the right way. its because of all these devices that we get a little too caught up in our own world and forget the big picture of direct contact and interaction. i must admit i am a culprit myself, always staring down at my phone swiping away and checking my newsfeed for updates on things that could probably be put on hold. there are times when it shouldn’t become top priority because there’s someone nearby that may benefit from a little conversation. while it doesn’t mean that we must hide our phones away at dinner tables, it’s a good idea not to be staring at it every waking second. good communication is the key to success; often, the good old fashioned face to face interaction is the most trustworthy one that always gets the message across the proper way. never underestimate the power of eye contact, facial expression and body language. i love my technology for what it brings me and i wouldn’t give it up, but i will always use it with care so technology doesn’t become the downfall of my communication skill

resolution series: [fifteen] confidence

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i have never been a confident person and i still am not, but i have taken strides in this area. i have very high expectations for myself; the fearful part is when i do not meet those standards, it becomes detrimental to my already lacking and wavering confidence level. playing on teams definitely helped just knowing my teammates will always be there to back me up. i have been fortunate to be a part of numerous teams with awesome teammates that support each other so well and prides in teamwork and team building activities. team chemistry plays a big role in bringing home championships – i experienced that first hand. becoming a part of the vdl exec team has made me more vocal; part of the package requires speaking in front of large groups of people, constantly meeting new people and putting myself out there in a bigger community. taekwondo has provided me more than i could have ever imagined. having met a close knit family where we train together and sweat together. through instructing, competing and demonstrating, it has forced me to speak and demonstrate in front of students, parents and spectators alike. i am glad that many moons ago, my instructor pushed me out into competition because it has been, by far, the biggest difference maker. being alone in the ring with all eyes watching can be fearful as hell but when time comes i have no choice and just have to go on stage and finish what i started. no doubt i have gained a lot experience, respect and approval through being both an instructor and a competitor, but that also comes with responsibility and pressure. not only have i developed my own standard that i must live up to, but others also have high expectations for me that i’d hate to disappoint. all of these undertakings were a leap of faith that required me to step out of my comfort zone and into a completely new territory not knowing what to expect. from a person who is unwilling to speak up, i have evolved to being capable of stepping up in front of large crowds and audiences. this is not to say i am comfortable being in the spotlight because i still get nervous every single time, but at least i am willing to take that step forward. even today i still shy away from attention and hide in the background. i am still quiet by nature, and only when i feel comfortable around you will i start to open up and express myself. that’s when you will get to know me better as a person, my values, the driving force and reasons behind the things i do. there’s a lot hiding inside if you manage to crack my shell