day 1381 – waking up

img_20200204_155355604508266693072772.jpgi am getting more irritated and more concerned waking up every morning feeling like a train hit me. i can’t move my neck to look down at the ground and cringe every time i need go bend over. these restrictions isn’t working for me and it’s only a matter of time before i explode. there’s so much i hate about my life at this point because it doesn’t allow me to move or play at will and i’m simply dying from gym withdrawal

day 646 – checking in with the team

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we successfully made it to portland double tree after a full morning and afternoon of driving and a lot of waiting. as i was driving southbound on i5, we saw a car going northbound that was covered in flames. my back is all tired out and stiff from the driving and sitting, but no time to lie down cause we still have to carry out our coaching duties until the end of the competition. tonight is all about getting ready and psyched for the big day tomorrow that starts first thing in the morning

day 323 – a night i wish i never had

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as if my day wasn’t as unflattering enough, it continues into the night. just as i thought i could go home and wait for the arrival of friday, things get even worse. my parents and i just can’t seem to see eye to eye recently and it’s making me very frustrated. i am dealing with way too much at the moment to correct what’s been said and done. the only two things i want to do is go to the gym and let out my steam and sit in darkness to get some time alone so i don’t explode on anyone else