day 2098 – shaky

i’m not going to lie. i feeling pretty depleted after today’s workout session. for the first time at apex, i failed to hit my pre-programmed weights. i missed a number of snatches and fell short of the weight i was suppose to lift for both my snatches and front squats. i’m not going to lie, i saw the weights set in my program and immediately felt intimidated. of the missed snatches, i didn’t give the effort to fight for the hold. though i was three pounds short of my one forty five squats, i’m still pretty excited to have a small increase from last week

day 1512 – work roadblock 

it’s hard to please everyone when i have a handful of projects in my queue, each sales claiming theirs is urgent. already stressed with the many tasks on my list, any added drama was uncalled for. a road block came up today which could have gotten me into a lot of trouble. good thing my manager didn’t step in and let me dig myself out of it. i was stressed, but had to prove that i could handle managing the tech team. i had to get over fight the rush hour to get to a poomsae seminar in burnaby. although i wasn’t in condition to partake, sifu wasn’t too angry because i made the effort to be present

day 1270 – homeworking

laying out my trace paper and other drafting utensils to start my assignment. i had a seven hour taekwondo shift so understandably i am pretty tired. sitting at my desk late at night hardly able to keep my eyes open; it’s not the best idea to start drafting now, but it’s the effort that counts. i guess i have it setup so that i’ll wake up extra early to begin my day with some homework time

louder than words

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i am beginning to fully understand what nike means when they say just do it. as my birthday approaches and soon i turn another year older, it’s one of those reflective moments where i look back and think of what i need to improve upon. all this time, there are many things i want to do and need to do but couldn’t do. in the past, i have put a lot of emphasis in thinking and planning for it but very seldom have i followed through with actions. it certainly took a lot longer than i would have liked but it’s never too late to understand; and i can’t be more happy to feel that things are starting to click inside my mind. knowing so, my mind and body must work together in order to make things happen and make changes towards my goals. it is time to search from within and find that power to will myself to put words into action. learning to take one thing at a time. actions speak louder than words so just go out there and prove it

transitioning

imagewith so much happening in the next four months, getting it back to normal starting april will be crucial to everything upcoming in may, june and july. another wake up call is needed on this day because i have fallen off the tracks and been procrastinating far too often. it was as simple as stating the obvious and getting right to the point because i am stupid so going around the matter doesn’t really get the point across. upon hearing what was said, the analogy that i have been slapped in the face, punched in the gut and stabbed in the heart sounds about right; which could only mean everything said was spot on. the fact that it hurt and affected me could only mean good things because it means i care and now understand the effort i put forth is unacceptable. i am glad someone found an effective way to provoke me and light the fire i have from within. i cannot lose sight of my destination or forget about how far i want to go but all this cannot be achieved if i don’t start today and stick with it everyday after that. today is the day to start because just thinking about it does absolutely nothing and result in no progression. at least now i have awoken and will make the necessary changes to do what is right

today’s struggles

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when times get rough and life gets tough, i try to remind myself that it’s only training me to be stronger for tomorrow. if the road to success was plain and simple, it would not be worth the sweat and hard work. understand that no matter what happens, there will be someone out there watching over you and ready to give you support when you most need it. and know that someone will be there to catch you when you fall, but ultimately its up to you yourself to stand back up and carry on. i know very well that if i stick with it and put in the effort, its just a matter of time before i get the results i want. it’s all about taking the necessary steps knowing everyday i will be stronger than the day before. because nothing beats being able to do something i couldn’t do yesterday and only i can change that