day 1644 – bayside dineout

i was quite reluctant to join in on the dineout vancouver festival, but mom insisted on taking visiting relatives out to a special dinner. aside from the lone boring topic that bored me to death, the dineout menu was actually quite good. i especially liked my appetizer of ahi tuna with mango and avocado. it’s apparent i can never get tired of eating salmon. the striploin steak wasn’t bad but i couldn’t finish as usual but got help as usual. the eating as gone awry over the last few weeks and it has to stop immediately. i told myself after this meal, i’ll gear down and be much more disciplined with my eating 


day 1470 – forkless 

in my packed lunch today is one of my favorites korean bean sprouts that my mom knows i love. eating late lunches means people get dibs on everything, everyday. cutlery especially forks miraculously go missing at the office, but i got to eat my lunch somehow. if all spoons go missing i’ll soon be eating with whatever utensil is left which could be knives or tongs

building 2017


2016 was one heck of a crazy roller coaster ride. the past twelve months gave me ample opportunities to experience more of what life is about. i found myself in the darkest moments where i shut myself off from the world, fluctations and eating problems ensued. i managed to dig deep with the support of my close ones, and got myself back together. nothing came easy as nothing worth achieving ever comes easy. behind closed doors, i fought many battles that no one knew about, but the most important thing is i never gave up on myself. i came to realization that i don’t want to remain stagnant and don’t want to remain the same so i took on some challenges. i defined what my goals were and was proactive in taking the necessary steps to get myself there. through the hard times i gained a lot of knowledge and strength that no doubt made a better me. it made me realize i’m much stronger than i think i am and need to get even stronger to withstand. i’m much closer to where i want to be but i’m not where i want to be yet. i’m still working on becoming the best version of myself

finished 2016 on a high note and looking to build a strong 2017 with bigger and more ambitious goals. it’s time to take it up a notch or even two and fulfill whatever my heart desires

  • stay as healthy and as injury-free as possible
  • train smarter and eat properly with sufficient sleep
  • be more disciplined and focused towards my goals
  • continue to work on my confidence level
  • love myself for who i am
  • communicate more with family and friends
  • explore the world and expand my horizon
  • attain supplementary diploma
  • appreciate being a workaholic, but also appreciate the little things
  • save up for the number game
  • revisit photography
  • do more of what sets my heart on fire

i’m pumped to make the next twelve months the best months i’ve ever had. find my strong. it’s now or never

day 972 – oyster sauce


having a whole broccoli head all to myself because i pigged out too much last couple days. i’ve worked on keeping myself accountable leading up to competition, but the last couple days has been very difficult. all that stress has gotten the better part of me and i find suppressing has been harder and harder. if eating bland is going to get me back on track, then eating bland it is. my eating has gone awry to the point where it’s probably slightly unhealthy

day 964 – soup


found a note and a big bowl of homemade soup on the kitchen counter courtesy of mom. i haven’t been home for meals much lately so i have been missing out on all her homecooking and healthy soups. she’s always concerned i am not eating enough and not getting nutritious meals in. i guess in a way she has all the reason to do so because in her eyes, i never seem to eat enough

day 910 – not mashed potato


cooking up some alternatives to satisfy my cravings for mashed potato. first time using this recipe and must say the final product turned out really well. i will definitely make this again but opt to make some adjustments to improve the texture. who needs potatoes when cauliflowers can taste so delicious and satiisfy me the way it did. good to know i don’t need to be an iron chef to make good food like this


day 906 – poached


golfing down on my poached eggs and tofu as fast as i can before heading out to taekwondo. refuelling myself with a protein riched lunch after yet another gym session complete. i am feeling the effects from yesterday but nothing is going to stop me from doing it all over again. i always get asked why i eat like this, but what does “eat like this” really mean? the better question is why do you not “eat like this”? if you haven’t gone through what i have, don’t judge because no one understands what staying healthy really means to me