i’ll get use to leaving the house when the sky is still pitch black. but it’ll take much more to adapt to sleeping earlier. stationary objects orbiting around me probably means something isn’t functioning properly. felt so faint for much of the day with a banging headache and stomachache. something is definitely wrong but i’m not sure what; i just know i don’t want to take drugs
sleeping has been an issue the last couple days. falling asleep has become increasingly difficult; waking up feeling like i never slept last night. i lay in bed seeing the clock strike 2am, then 3am and realizing my alarm is set to ring in four hours. it’s never a good sign when i get agitated easily and don’t feel up to doing anything productive. these days when i am indifferent about everything gives me a terrible and empty feeling inside. could it be the stress and unease as the competition date gets closer??
coaching this early saturday morning made difficult when i could barely keep my eyes open. had one of those sleepless nights where my stomach was feeling unsettling, likely from the food at dinner. so overkilled with taekwondo, i really didn’t feel like practicing myself even though everything in my body tells me i must. after following through regardless, i went straight home and passed out. i’m disappointed plans had to change and the streak was broken, but i just couldn’t stay awake
going the asian route in attempt to cure this lingering cough that doesn’t seem to be going away even after four long weeks. it seems like i have tried every possible solution but had little success or progress to show for. the condition gets especially bad early mornings and late at night which works well if i need a body clock to tell me when it’s 10am and 10pm