day 2010 – test render

modeling and rendering my own bedroom as my first official test render. been talking to my manager about doing renderings for ages, but could never peel me off the work load. with the latest transition, his promise still stands. my manager and i agreed that this will be the perfect time to finally do what i’ve been wanting – model and render. the test render came out with a result so satisfyingly real. this will be the first of many and each one will only get better

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day 1946 – second year

two years ago to the day, i stepped into this office with a loosely defined position under a manager that hadn’t got a clue. insert a different manager and fast forward two years later, i’ve learned a lot under his guidance, and grown to become a better leader. i couldn’t be happier of where my manager has guided me. he who believed i could handle a team behind me and described me to have a cool temperament. looking back this year, i’ve accomplished a whole lot without even noticing. moving into third year, i’ll have to continually think about what i want to be and where i ultimately want to go

day 1901 – attempt practice

a failed attempt to practice after sunday poomsae training. intended to have some extra practice after all the kids left, but didn’t get much done and ended up going off on some discussions. i think i’m going to try to set some time aside to get some extra practice in for myself; testing to see if i can get myself back into it. in need to set some goals for myself with some deadlines

day 1632 – forklift 101


an unusual day of work but a very interesting one where i learned many things about cnc protocols. soon i’ll be able to program my own files and run that cnc machine by myself. while i was waiting for the machine to run my test, i had an adventure in the plant. barely a crash course and i’m well on my way maneuvering a forklift and picking things up as i please. the plant guys were surprised i wanted hop on, but least surprised i was quick to pick it up. fidgeting and experimenting with new gadgets is what feeds my curiosity mind. learning opportunities is right before my eyes and it’s up to me to seize every opportunity

say 1615 – seymour snowday

off on the right foot on the first day of 2018 with the many firsts of the year. up the mountain for the first time to give snowshoeing a try. it’s been years of many years of tradition spending new years day on the slope. we rose above the fog and sought the picture perfect views down below. first day is really meant for firsts for everything including breaking my first rule of the year by going off route. like i had expected, this year i will be doing what i set out to do – to be me and devote more time doing what sets my heart on fire

day 1584 – over and done

it’s finally made official, but deep down i know it’s over for the better. the decision to leave at one of my most critical time was already a telling tale; but i learned to bare next to no expectations from then on. if i was able to survive that storm alone, i’d be able to manage others just fine. i don’t understand why i held on even when i wasn’t happy, when letting go makes me hurt less. lots of things are about to change. it’s time to reset myself and get back to understanding what my own priorities don’t need to live in the shadows of everyone else’s

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i’m disappointed there’s so little belief in me and although it doesn’t take anything away from my ability, it bugs me more than i show it. it sucks to be looked upon with double standards because some just can’t accept the fact that girls can have the same abilities. i guess it’s all about their egos. i can’t control what others choose to believe, but i can control what i can do. i’ll still keep pushing forward like always