day 2064 – wings wednesday

grabbing late night wings at shark club because the rest of the gang was craving chicken. i can only finish one pound of wings which constitutes ten wings. i went with honey garlic and an arnold palmer to go with it. it tasted so good for my stomach, but not so much for my diet. i have a feeling i’m going to call in tomorrow because i’ve had enough of the bullshit that i don’t give anymore

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day 1884 – bed base revisions

finally a sample was made on what must be the fifth revision. i’ve had it with the millennial bed base revisions and no longer care how everyone wants the design to be. they keep changing my initial design and every time someone has something to say. i personally don’t like the recessed kick, but i’m not going to add my input. i just want this done with so i can turn my attention to next year’s collection.

day 1882 – blurried

my goal got a little blurried last two days so needed a reminder for myself. i’m not happy with how i went off track the last two days. all i know is it’s time to pull myself back into it. i need to find ways to hold myself accountable for the things i set out to do. recognizing i faltered and knowing i’m the only one who can fix the problem and move onwards to get it right again

day 1826 – work calls

i went into work and did my lunch and learn presentation. i went not because i wanted to, but cause obligation calls. the way everything has unfolded recently left me feeling sour and i’m about to give up trying to reach for justice. i no longer feel like standing up for what’s fair and will just do whatever is said. the amount of work i manage, the amount of stress from all directions, and the lack of respect i’m receiving just doesn’t add up. the renumeration that was promised doesn’t exist. if things don’t change, then i’m on my way out

day 1492 – low light 

change of plans and headed straight home because the low blood sugar hit me this afternoon. required a short nap and woke up feeling so so but still set on a trip to nash anyway. did not expect a whole lot so but nothing bad happened so i’d say i passed. trying to brush off the disappointments one after another, but at the end of the day i need to learn i’m living for myself and doing what’s best for me. maybe it’s good to learn to expect everything from myself and expect nothing from others

day 1159 – thoughtless

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i was feeling strangely indifferent about everything today, almost as if i don’t have feelings. i should be disappointed at myself for the slippage today, but it’s just a day after many disciplined ones and i will work twice as hard to undo it. certain topics that i didn’t want to see or think about came up and only made me stressed and press a little more. i actually looked forward for sunday to end so i can move on and get a better start. maybe i had trouble getting rest last night and had to get through a full day’s worth of things