day 2227 – taekwondo time

killarney just got a lot way more stressful starting this term. i’ll be short my vice instructor because she got pulled back to teaching at main branch but i get no one in return; it’ll be just me, an instructor and assistant instructors. i’ll have to train up another vice instructor from scratch. until then, i’ll have to own everything and be prepared to take on anything that comes my way. that’s including preparations for promotion tests, comeptitions and demonstrations while juggling my staff’s limited availability. it’ll be hard to stay sane throughout this term, but i’ll stay positive and continue to believe in what i can offer

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day 973 – packing ahead

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unlike all the previous times i travel out for competition, i am getting a head start on packing. packing light has never been an easy task for me cause i always end up bringing way more than i require. i am portland bound for the second straigt year. the feeling is far different this time. i feel like i am a whole new me because i have people by my side prepping and reassuring me. they make sure i am mentally sound and prepared to take on this battle, and always reminding me the mindset i carry onto the stage is what sets me apart. my mental game is definitely stronger than the last; i know i just got to go out there and perform at my best and everything will take care of itself

resolution series: [twentyone] believe

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trust your heart and go with your instincts, it usually doesn’t lie. until you do what your heart desires, you will not live life to its fullest potential. belief is an important thing to develop because if you do not believe in yourself, who do you expect to believe in you?? i always followed the saying “if you believe in what you are doing, don’t let anyone stop you.” even if it means the rest of the world is against what you are about to do. that is precisely what i have been doing for many years and counting. even when everyone bade me to stop all that i do, i still do it because my heart wanted to and it felt that i could handle it. i was not prepared to give up tennis, taekwondo, dodgdeball, basketball for knitting or orgami. that isn’t my style and wouldn’t give me the satisfaction in life worth striving for. as a result each and every time i go out to compete, i go out with intent thinking of everything i have to prove. confidence has always been a weak spot because i don’t like spotlight. over the years, slowly but surely i am learning that it’s okay to make mistake cause i am not superman. just remember to trust my stuff, just go out there and give it my all. regardless of the outcome, i did the best i could. if there’s a will, there’s a way

pressure is on

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just days before we hit the road for us world open in portland and i would be lying if i didn’t feel the pressure. experience does help a little, but no matter how many competitions i have competed in, the nervousness and jitters don’t go away. this time there is extra pressure to perform even better because of the competition in my division plus all the kids and parents around. i find myself sitting in front my line of trophies and medals, and hoping that my collection of hardware will continue to get bigger with every passing competition. training time remaining is limited until the big day and i must do everything i can cause my destiny is in my own hands. it’s time to train hard to give myself the best chance possible. now is the time is for me to shine so leave everything in the ring and have no regrets