day 839 – not right

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i had a great weekend, only up to the moment i realize i had disobeyed all that i said i would do. i am fighting myself and feeling torn inside because i walked in with a number in mind but went well beyond that limit, i don’t know how it got so out of hand. it’s only finally hitting me hard today, the wheels have really fallen off and i don’t even know where to begin to pick myself up. what a heart felt disappointment when i have regretfully misused the trust others had in me. i failed others and most importantly i have failed myself. need to learn that discipline is choosing between what i want now and what i want most. perhaps i must be stricter and harder on myself and start my climb from the bottom again. i guess i deserved to have both my pinkies sprained during practice

day 838 – post drink fest

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the day after drinking so much is usually a painful one with all sorts of hangover syndrome. i expected nothing less this time around having down so much more than my intended limit, but i must say i feel like recovery is a lot better than rdl pubnight. it was a fully loaded day with taekwondo, teaching and dodgeball practice, but i was fully functional throughout. found some of the finest pictures posted from the drink fest, i now have a better glimpse of how the night went. the weekend full of actitivites is great but man, i’ve eaten pretty shitty and terribly wrong all weekend long