day 1673 – grunt sessionĀ 


needed some grunting moments as a source of outlet prior to having my taekwondo meeting with grandmaster. i really needed to unleash all that anger with endorphins emitting activities and iron was just the thing. the frustration of being continuously bombarded with phone calls and messages up to the hour of the meeting. didn’t kick up any of his calls because i didn’t want to be distracted by unrelated work matters. needless to say i was so distracted and deflated to the point where i didn’t want to hit the gym, but i’m glad i did it on a day where i felt so unmotivated

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day 1395 – earnest

carrying over the effects of yesterday, i couldn’t concentrate seeing so many live streams and posts of the event. even the earnest manager brought in didn’t help much. i didn’t want to be anywhere; if there was a hole i would bury myself. luckily i could go out for a drink on a warm summer-like night. that gave my mind a break so i don’t have to bum around and want to run myself through the walls

day 1177 – vantage point

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taking a step back and putting everything on hold to regroup, recharge and recalibrate myself. i’ve been too distracted lately and not loving myself for who i am; if i don’t, no one would. the toxic feeling got too far to the point where i thought i wasn’t worth. it was a long overdue reset day where i did nothing related. i wanted a break and i got it, but now it’s time to find that fire and move forward in the right direction