day 2306 – finger fractured

checkininto burnaby hospital yet again. i’ve had far too many hospital and clinic visits in the past month. what i feared last night is confirmed by xrays. my middle finger needs to be splinted for a couple weeks. it’s been that kind of a month, not only does my foot not work properly, now my hand is also disabled. how can i not be disappointed one after the other, but i hope by staying positive, it can help with the recovery process

day 2303 – deterred

felt antsy and wanted to push my foot’s limit a little to see how it reacts. i did some step offs to test absorbing impact and it seemed fine. i then tried to jump onto a small box and that’s where the troubles began. i couldn’t bend very much before my foot gave in and collapsed in pain. no matter how many times i tried, i just couldn’t load my foot properly. discouraged enough, i moved onto test some squat positions and that was also concerning. narrow squat stance was painful but snatch squat stance was doable. i left pretty upset feeling no progress made with my foot

day 2281 – general practitioner

my family doctor never seems to fail at disappointing me. i went into her office for one reason – to get either an xray or mri referral. i didn’t get either of the said referrals. instead, i got a prescribed topical cream. this blows my mind that one needs to go through medical school to be able to tell me topical cream will be the best relief she can provide. remind me to never go to her unless i want to get disappointed

day 2241 – new belt

picked up my new belt with the forth stripe but looks like i’ll have to call in to ask about the quality and workmanship. the belt has a crooked joing in the middle as if two shorter stripes were haphazardly sewn together. also noticeable was the quality of the belts has gone down and they don’t feel as weighty as my previous one. i would feel stupid for wearing this that’s not up to par

day 2240 – bench view

playing on the wing and trying to keep up beside two very experienced linemates. i had an assist in the game, but honestly i was disappointed with my own play misjudging some and not converting on the many chances. flipping before games really takes the legs out, but i think i just need to train my legs harder to get them into better shape. this will be a long season ahead, let’s get it

day 2208 – x-out tease

little feedback received on my touch down raiz and gainer to even work with or progress into anything because all the commotion was to push selected few to do corks. disappointed i didn’t get to try any spotted, but it is what it is. threw some butterfly twists onto red mat but not much done. so i decided to work on x-out on my own and made much progress before the coach finished with his private lesson and started giving me pointers. by the end, it felt good with the tweaks he suggested. i sense it’s close to getting some target attempts

day 2146 – rusty snatches

second apex workout since returning and i’m still trying really hard to get back to proper snatching. i’ll be the first to admit i’m pretty disappointed in the missed snatches that shouldn’t be missed. when the lifts appear to start out wrong, i give up on it far too early and clearly don’t try hard enough to save them. i was told off for doing so and smartened up after that. at least i made up for the lackluster lifts with some better back squats