day 2281 – general practitioner

my family doctor never seems to fail at disappointing me. i went into her office for one reason – to get either an xray or mri referral. i didn’t get either of the said referrals. instead, i got a prescribed topical cream. this blows my mind that one needs to go through medical school to be able to tell me topical cream will be the best relief she can provide. remind me to never go to her unless i want to get disappointed

day 2241 – new belt

picked up my new belt with the forth stripe but looks like i’ll have to call in to ask about the quality and workmanship. the belt has a crooked joing in the middle as if two shorter stripes were haphazardly sewn together. also noticeable was the quality of the belts has gone down and they don’t feel as weighty as my previous one. i would feel stupid for wearing this that’s not up to par

day 2240 – bench view

playing on the wing and trying to keep up beside two very experienced linemates. i had an assist in the game, but honestly i was disappointed with my own play misjudging some and not converting on the many chances. flipping before games really takes the legs out, but i think i just need to train my legs harder to get them into better shape. this will be a long season ahead, let’s get it

day 2208 – x-out tease

little feedback received on my touch down raiz and gainer to even work with or progress into anything because all the commotion was to push selected few to do corks. disappointed i didn’t get to try any spotted, but it is what it is. threw some butterfly twists onto red mat but not much done. so i decided to work on x-out on my own and made much progress before the coach finished with his private lesson and started giving me pointers. by the end, it felt good with the tweaks he suggested. i sense it’s close to getting some target attempts

day 2146 – rusty snatches

second apex workout since returning and i’m still trying really hard to get back to proper snatching. i’ll be the first to admit i’m pretty disappointed in the missed snatches that shouldn’t be missed. when the lifts appear to start out wrong, i give up on it far too early and clearly don’t try hard enough to save them. i was told off for doing so and smartened up after that. at least i made up for the lackluster lifts with some better back squats

day 2126 – duck and waffle

this was suppose to be a super highly rated restaurant that requires months and months of advance booking. the view from the fortieth floor was nice, but aside from that, i personally thought everything was overpriced and overrated. the duck and waffle was minimally okay and i definitely wouldn’t pay eighteen pounds for it. on top of that, their service was one of the worst i’ve ever seen. i’d day i’m dissatisfied with the amount i paid for in return

day 1960 – gaining or losing

trying something new and falling on my face is quite normal. i can’t lie about the disappointment i’ve been facing with my struggles as of late. i feel like i’ve lost the back tuck and aerial, both of which i’ve spent so long working on. the only thing i still have is my front tuck. i feel ashamed that i’m going through this struggle with my flips and tricks and very few people will understand. sports has always come rather easy all my life and my coordination has never been an issue, but for this i always second guess myself and kind of want to give up