day 2428 – choreographing

everyday since being in quarantine, one of the things i look forward to is going into the gym to train. it’s good that we’re putting some initial choreography thoughts into action. i do, however, worry that my basics isn’t sound, my skill-set is limited, my technique is inconsistent and i’m not enough to match my partner. the last thing i want to do is disappoint my partner and coach. the only thing i can really promise and control is to work hard at solidifying what i need to hold my own

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here’s a little side thought of the moment. i find myself always helping, always accommodating and always putting others well being before mine but sadly i don’t get the same in return. many of my efforts and achievements are undermined; taking what i do ¬†and give for granted and ends up being borderline inconsiderate. not that i seek recognition; if it’s seen, it’s seen, i’m tired of trying show that i care. life is a two way street and sometimes being appreciative is a good thing. just snowballing and needed to get it off my chest

day 1208 – tilted

img_20200204_2141186424235527246298942.jpglong day on the mats that spanned ten hours with a break that wasn’t even a break. it wasn’t even necessary when i was already past my point of hunger. the promotion test went well, but the impromptu meeting the grandmaster called was rather disconcerting because he wanted and expected us to shoulder more than what we’re currently taking on. i know some of his disappointment was directed at me because i made the wrong call at portland to pass on that seminar. well after digesting that discussion is realizing i need to feed my empty stomach