day 1547 Рlorraine replicas 

i came out to complete¬†team lorraine as part of the dress up halloween wednesday. all i had to do with show up and my teammates brought the props to me. i know that i’ll always have my obyf teammates cheering me on, even when i’m the one on the sideline. their support for me and the team spirit they bring has been a difference maker during my coping time. i can’t wait to be back on the court with these neon guys, but i fear my chances of returning before this season ends is slim

day 1375 – over it

these things inadvertently keep me up at night. it’s been in the back of my mind recently and today put me over the top. perhaps i’m emotionally tired from tylenoling myself for the three jammed ribs. one thing i’ve set on is giving up on expectations of certain things if the importance was never placed to begin with. i don’t feel the same and i’m frustrated, but at the same time indifferent because i’m not about to press for something that cannot be attained. i’ve learned it was never there for me and if it mattered it’d stick