day 2298 – room bound

sadly, i slept in and missed the raptors limited edition shoe launch. spent majority of the time at home and mostly in my room because i don’t want to get anyone in my family sick. it’s been a really weird and rough stretch for me the past few weeks. i’ve dealt with a foot injury where after six assessments by different physicians, the final diagnosis is still u determine to date. yet, i still am restricted to basically not do anything i usually do. i’m now trapped with this sickness tagged as bronchitis, but i also have a cold and both combined keeps me up coughing all night long, and gives me a headache when i’m not in bed

day 2290 – google toy

the first of five package to arrive is my newest google toy. during my recovery phase, i’ve got nothing better to do but to invest in online shopping. i’ve already missed my original targeted date in returning. the recovery progress is slowed and sometimes nonexistent. i’ve received four or five different diagnosis without a verdict. i can’t lie, but i’ve started to lose hope that even after resuming my activities, i will not do things nearly as good. part of me wonders if my ride is over and i’ll have to give up certain things that i really like

day 2282 – allan mcgavin

starting off november with some good news. four days, five clinics and seven physicians later, i finally have my name on the long mri waitlist. back at the ubc allan mcgavin sports clinic again, this time the sports medicine doctor deems that mri is now a necessity. i’ve been needing this referral for eight months. the two doctors did a bunch of assessements on my foot and deduced the idea of a bone breakage. although a liagment issue isn’t easier to deal with, it’s a relief to know i can ditch the aircast

day 2170 – road less taken

the tears that rolled uncontrollably down my face was a direct reflection of how i felt inside. as much as i wanted to stop myself in front of people, i simply couldn’t stop the tears from coming down. so much stress has built up around work, taekwondo, people and health that my emotional and physical state are torn inside and outside. all my life i feel i’ve been cheated because i never had the privilege of having the health most people enjoy. still, i push through and train through all my injuries, overcoming one after another. this time is no different, but four months is too long to go through without having a proper diagnosis and method of treatment. no doubt i’m feeling frustrated from the hopelessness

day 198 – doctors note

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physio’s final words for me until further notice, but to me it feels more like a death sentence. my physio knows me best so i will try to cooperate and trust that he can get me back as soon as possible. i will be ready once i get cleared but i also know that i may have to miss this competition