day 1570 – ikea run

treated to ikea froyo for helping with the ikea run. haven’t been to ikea for some time and haven’t eaten anything from ikea in a long time. as much as i wanted to reject the extra calories knowing pubnight social food is in the evening, it was already bought for me. so much guilt as i hold onto this cone wondering what after effects it may have. i restrict myself to a deficit on a regular basis, so one day i will lose the fat name callings. until then, i’ll always be self conscious and not let myself always have what it craves

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day 1301 Рself conscious 

not moving much and not being physically active has made me become self conscious and i’ve let it take over with my decision making. it’s only fair that if i can’t do what i want, it won’t get what it wants either. can’t help but feel undeserving so i skipped a meal or two and waited out my appetite. as long as i occupy myself, everything becomes psychological needs