day 1809 – home decor

after hearing their countless trips to furniture stores all over lower mainland, glad my parents settled on a dining table they actually liked. they’re picky with how it looks and how it matches our house. i’d like to say i played a small role in the selection process. it matches the new kitchen cabinets we installed last year. the home improvement just keeps on coming; i wonder what is next on my parent’s list

self belief

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over the past week or so, i have been receiving ample of coaching, advice and prep talk on what it means to have proper mindset. the idea that i must head into each event with the confidence that i will nail my every move as i imagined it to be. i have been told i have total control over what i can give and what i can do. i have been told countless times that i need to believe in myself and trust my skills enough to let it do the talking. my body has done each move more than enough times where thinking does no good; all moves should now be second nature. i can’t reiterate how important it has been to have these prep talk and guidance to ensure my mind is in its right place. it really puts me in a more comfortable spot heading in, knowing i am mentally stable and ready to take on what’s ahead. i can walk into the competition believing they are right there with me every step of the way. it’s true i can’t control the end results, but i will take all the things they’ve tried to hammer into my mind and put it to heart. all i ask of myself is to go out on the big stage, give it everything i got and let the rest take care of itself. that alone, will make me proud for i have conquered and accomplished what i was never capable of before. this has got to be the strongest mentality i ever had going into a competition. they have done so much for me and been so patient with me over the last little while. they stuck with me through my toughest moments and did all they could to instill calmness back into my mind. i owe it to them to put forth my best effort and bring it home

day 604 – bashed legs

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my legs are bashed with countless bruises from everything as of late. i didn’t even realize how much damage was caused and what i did that may have caused it but it may or may not be a harmful thing. i guess its just another sign my pain receptors no longer feel its something that requires my attention. it’s probably preferable my legs don’t take any additional beating until the current ones subsides. i think my physio’s going to have a thing or two to say when he sees this