day 2057 – front squats

been concentrating on going heavy with front squats for the past several weeks and progress is there. i really wanted to build the strength back up; started barely cracking the century mark to now being able to hit one twenty five for working sets. i’m not far off from one plate front squats and think hitting it before my birthday is totally doable. i feel the power exercises has translated well with my explosiveness. i just feel like i tend to hold back sometimes because i want to ensure i can control them properly

day 1570 – ikea run

treated to ikea froyo for helping with the ikea run. haven’t been to ikea for some time and haven’t eaten anything from ikea in a long time. as much as i wanted to reject the extra calories knowing pubnight social food is in the evening, it was already bought for me. so much guilt as i hold onto this cone wondering what after effects it may have. i restrict myself to a deficit on a regular basis, so one day i will lose the fat name callings. until then, i’ll always be self conscious and not let myself always have what it craves

day 1396 – start low

lightening up and still feel difficulty with five sets doesn’t bode well for my psyche. four weeks of disruption from my workout program and all my lifts suffers a tremendous drop. everything must stay within warmup range until i can prove my that recovery is at 50%. i’m trying to stay patient but i’m not very patient at this and it sucks the life out of me until i am fully back. i’m waiting on everything that i have little control over