the first blank page in 2019 was written by spiderman in spiderverse. i couldn’t turn down my friends again two times in three days so i rushed over from my consult to hit up cineplex for spider verse matinee. i’ll be honest and didn’t completely understand part way when multiple ‘spiderman’ showed up, but like all the spiderman movies in the past, they never fail. not a bad way to start the new year kicking it off with a movie. but just as the new year begins, work in back in business tomorrow. it’s been a chill and relaxing string of days off, a luxury i don’t get. i haven’t felt recharged for the longest time so i will wrap everything up and begin the new year strong
weeknight girls night eating sushi, pulled chicken salad, cinnamon wheel and apple pie while watching infinity war. the movie was super confusing to us; we tried to find explanation videos after an inconclusive ending. we chatted late into the night and will probably pay for it tomorrow morning. i’m quite behind in the movies department, but slowly catching up on what’s made available on netflix and chrome cast
i was prepared to spend my day here and walk out with metal inserts. did all sorts of tests, hooked up to machines, confirmed anesthetics, then the surgeon came and said he didn’t believe he could make it any better with a metal plate. i’m more than slightly confused with the turn of events; i don’t have a choice but to follow his plan of action of treatments at his clinic. after four or five hours of checkups and a few holes, i was discharged without being operated on. hospital aside, the transparency at one of my major life event is unacceptable and more than a red flag. i think i’ll forever remember this day as the day my heart broke
the teaching assistant was going over the term project but lost me early on in the optional work session. i had no idea what was going on; i guess others started leaving for the same reason. remembering half the term’s mark is based solely on this term project made me stay a little longer and stress out a little more. i still stayed until i figured there was no point, plus i was getting super hungry. i’ll give it a rest tomorrow as there’s lots of odds and ends to take care of before i head out on my roadtrip
my headache has improved as the days pass by, but all those hours of teaching and coaching caused a lot of havoc for my throat. my mom gave me some medication she bought in japan, ones that only provided instructions in japanese. it doesn’t help that i am japanese illiterate. little did i know how to take them; i just assumed they were to be ingested in some form which is exactly what i did
each year there are many birthdays to celebrate, my mom, dad, brother, friends, coworkers, and of course my own. each and every year as it gets closer to my birthday, i start to feel a little more stressed knowing time is passing me by quicker than i can imagine. it scares me watching the time go by so fast and soon i will be at another stage in life. but before then there’s a lot more other things to worry about. for instance, school is up, what’s next?? what will my future hold, how will my career turn out, what will my relationship status be, how will i be able to cope with all these changes?? so many questions and so many unanswered questions waiting to be answered. in school we were given answer keys to determine whether we have the right or wrong answers; in life, that’s rarely the case. at this point in life, there are so many open ended questions and little knowledge of where to find the answers. this is when quarter life crisis kicks in and gets the best of us. i am no master at dealing with this, as i, myself, am still trying to figure things out. all i can say is take life as it is given, things start off with lots of uncertainties, but as time goes by, it will start to clear up. i’ve always been told everything will be okay in the end; if it’s not okay, its not the end.
the transition of growing up from stage to stage is not an easy one. being a kid was easy but we wouldn’t even realize it at that time. during the first decade, there’s no need to stress, no need to worry and every day passed by like it was the best day of our lives. went to school, played with friends, had some extracurricular activities and went home happy and carefree. stepping into the second decade was a tougher because we realize there are added responsibilities and the acknowledgement of what stress is. school gets busier, homework increases, extracurricular activities piles on, not to mention drama will occur, relationships becomes unclear and the need to start thinking about career path. entering the third decade of the life, formally known as adulthood, is the toughest yet. school gets tougher, every exam and paper is like a do or die situation, extracurricular activities continues, love life has its ups and downs, and you feel like your career is trapped in fog and there’s no turning back. there are those moments when nothing is going right, everything happens out of the unexpected and everyone seems to be against you and you think long and hard and question whether you made the right decisions five years ago. i now understand why people will occasionally go in the quarter life crisis. i don’t know what is in store for me the rest of this decade and the next ones to come, but i am set to make take the positives out of situations and make it the best possible experience