day 1038 – walk in not

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i went to a walk in clinic with one thing on my mind – to get doctor’s clearance to play dodgeball again. i needed this more than ever because i am not about to miss pinepaple playoffs. turns out just my luck that the clinic closes early on fridays. instead of getting my note, i went out to have a chocolate toast for afternoon tea which i would consider carb loading before race day

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day 1020 – life on the edge

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we both carry a busy and fast paced lifestyle. during our downtime, we sit back sipping on our smoothies and taking our usual walks, making the most out of the time we have together. i am feeling exhausted after getting back into town, but i am still committed to an evening of training followed by pineapple league. another scary moment at dodgeball as i was down for second time within a month. head shots have been a problem; only a few days ago did i mention i felt like i was over my concussion. i feel terrible everyone has to worry about me and i hate to see mo so concerned

living through my falls

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it’s unbelievable how fast things could change and how far things could fall. outside my shell, it’s hard to tell i have lived through two very rough weeks. but beneath my shell, my life felt very close to the “underworld”, filled with mayhem that’s got me feeling rocking bottom. the descend started off with a week long fever, cough then cold. i couldn’t muster much activity during this time; i was bed ridden and under endless medication majority of the time. my body felt weak as ever; all the ground i’ve gained has been lost, and deep down i felt even worse about myself because i couldn’t do anything to change it. luckily, i had a personal nurse that took care of me and almost felt more concerned about my health than i ever was. just as i was recovering from sickness, the nightmare hit me hard – literally. ever since being struck at dodgeball playoffs, i felt like i was living in a really bad dream. having a concussion is scary because everything felt out of whack. my head and neck were throbbing, my movements were slowed, my speech and thoughts were disoriented, my appetite was affected – the bottom line is, i wasn’t able to function like my normal self. what made it difficult was i couldn’t tell people what i was going through nor could i disclose the severity fearing they will not let me continue with my upcoming events which means so much to me. i’m feeling slightly better with each passing day and a week after the incident, i can safely say recovery seems like it’s on course. thankful mo has been by my side during this rough span. just having his presence makes things better and gives me the inspiration to think on the bright side even when times get tough. i’ve fallen very far down and lost a lot of the gains i’ve been working hard at, but now is really not the time to hang my head. i’m not okay with myself and my performance in it’s current stage, so i’m going to make it right. i must get it together and make up that ground in a hurry. it won’t be easy, but it will be done

day 996 – supersets

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friday night spent in my sanctuary lifting and dropping some iron. feels great to be back in the gym regularly after a long layoff from all the recent illnesses and misfortunes. taking it easy this week as i’m told, and only doing things that won’t cause too much discomfort. it’s definitely frustrating having lost so much gains i’ve worked hard at, but doesn’t deter me from working back to my top form. no question i am still feeling the effects but i am also feeling slightly better with each passing day. it makes me a little more grateful that i can do what i do, and i can do what i love

day 995 – therapeutics

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my morning physio to get my head and neck fixed turns out to be remedial for both my knees as well. lots of damage was done during rdl playoffs because somehow both my knee caps were messed up. no surprise physio was angry with my head injury; i can’t blame him. but it doesn’t change the fact of that what’s done is done, nor does it change the way i would have handled it. i’ll just focus on resting up and hoping for speedy recovery so i can continue to grind

day 993 – spot eating

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me going to my family doctor is like the sun rose on the west side. i couldn’t get my way out of seeing her because my head is in dire need of assessment. while i am nursing my head and staying off whatever the doctor said not to do, i am hitting up the old and faithful whitespot. tonight felt like a movie and burger night and lots of mo time, so here’s my monty mushroom with caesar salad. it was good while i had the freedom to eat a little, and now it’s back to game plan to ease off it again

day 990 – rdl champ

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i couldn’t have been more satisfied winning rdl tier 2 champs. every sour catch kid stepped up and played together down the stretch to make this happen. it was a hard earned championship where we had to fight through many tough series and come back from the loser’s bracket. it did come with a cost. i took two shots in the head in a single play – one being a ball that struck me in the collarbone area, the other being a follow through elbow in the back of my head. it was a scary moment because i don’t recall dropping down on the floor like a rock and being unresponsive for a good minute or two. regardless, i just wanted to get up and continue playing because the finals meant the world to me. i can deal with the consequences after it’s all said and done