the mosquito bite from yesterday got so out of hand that i couldn’t concentrate on anything. nurse friend said i may have cellulitis and should see a doctor at emergency, but instead i rushed to walmart and settled for some topical cream with hydrocortisone. i even pulled out of hockey last minute because it was burning hot. i felt horrible for staying in on such short notice especially when it’s the start of playoffs for civil war
my friend joined me for workout because she wanted to check out this location. she also wanted to do what i do because she wanted my hops; that in itself is a big compliment. i needed to get back on track with my strength lifts and stay consistent. my cleans felt better than last time just by staying concentrated the moment the bar leaves the ground to the time my shoulders catch it. my squats felt good and stepped it up by five pounds as my program was written up. i recorded both those lifts so i could get them reviewed by my coach
been concentrating on going heavy with front squats for the past several weeks and progress is there. i really wanted to build the strength back up; started barely cracking the century mark to now being able to hit one twenty five for working sets. i’m not far off from one plate front squats and think hitting it before my birthday is totally doable. i feel the power exercises has translated well with my explosiveness. i just feel like i tend to hold back sometimes because i want to ensure i can control them properly
nationals in the back of my mind the whole day made me so restless. i never expected the decision to be easy to overcome, and i think i handled it the best i could. what made it more difficult was i had no one to speak my mind and made it less inviting when i’m constantly being criticized, teased or ignored. i feel like i’m taking this on alone and less willing to pour my heart out knowing i’m going to get insults. i don’t know how long i can take the punishment
day two at calgary olympic oval is a big day – it’s competition day. the division is stacked with many torontonians who tends to lead canada’s competition. having said that, i went through all my pregame preparation like i set out to and only concentrated on what i had to do. the focus is getting into finals; that itself was my first big challenge of this year’s nationals. toronto owned the podium once again, but i gained lots of valuable experience and knowledge through it all. it was a performance i could be satisfied with for i knew i made vast improvements from last year. lots to do for offseason training, but i’m ready and willing to work hard to take it to the next level
having a busy schedule is good because that means i am always productive and proactive. my schedule is usually packed seven days a week, twenty four hours a day, and often needing more time in a day to squeeze everything in to accommodate everyone. it can also be very tiresome because i am always stepping on the gas pedal as hard as i can dashing from one errand to the next. but is accommodating and meeting everyone’s needs my top priority and the sole purpose of living? sometimes, i do wish to have more time for myself away from the rest of the world. aside from taking care of business in the public scheme of things, there are also planning, thinking and number crunching tasks that goes behind the scenes that often gets overlooked. these things tend to be handled in my spare time, which so happens to be time sacrificed from eating and sleeping. i like my personal space and enjoy time alone but it’s very hard to come by. when i am alone, i am able to sit there in silence and reflect on things while putting things into its proper perspective. i find being at the gym gives me that sense of privacy where i can plug in my headphones and shut off the rest of the world. the same can be found when training at taekwondo outside of class time, when all those annoying people don’t interfere at all the wrong times. it’s one of those moments that i will do my thing so don’t you dare come into my bubble while i am in my zone focusing on myself
today’s performance is unworthy of this blue uniform. let down a lot of people and most importantly myself with lack of concentration and attention of detail. disappointment all over, i am the harshest critic of myself and should never allow that to happen again. time to tighten it up and be more serious and prepared for the next.