day 505 – drained

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feeling awfully drained and really needing a break. no doubt i knew there would come a time when my mind and body will not allow me to continue with the kind of schedule i run on. its been wearing down on me for over half a year and now my mind is ready to go on strike. i wake up everyday feeling crappy and even more so exhausted knowing the things i have to get through day after day. all i want to do is shut off the world and finish what i have to do. it’s christmas season and all i am too drained to even enjoy it. i try to hide all that stress and pretend everything is okay because i don’t want to put it upon anyone else but somehow it’s showing through my shell. i need a break, i know its not time yet, but i know it’s coming in a couple more weeks

day 123 – what a day, glad that’s over

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my marathon day included taekwondo, dodgeball playoffs, instructor seminar, and training twelve hours consecutive. just wasn’t my day, nothing really went my way since i never felt into my dodgeball games and my mind, arms and legs were super exhausted towards the end of the day to be any use for training. need to brush it aside and look forward