day 1849 – la foret

marcom meeting at la foret to plan out the upcoming dodgeball season. it’s good to get together once in a while to make sure everything is clear and understand what’s expected of each person. i’m not big on cakes and pastries most of the time but i took home a raspberry mousse cake because i’m under the impression that the cakes and pastries here are very well known. i shared the piece with my parents and they both loved it. i guess delicacy like this is okay once in a while

day 1420 – disconnect 

there’s no change since. the fact that i still feel alone hasn’t changed. it makes me wonder what difference it makes being in a relationship. i still feel i am on my own. has it gotten too comfortable to the point where communication can be so sparse and the disconnect can be so big?? i don’t have a lot of needs and i don’t demand for much, maybe that’s why i get pushed aside and pushed down in priorities. i try to sweep it under the rug but i can’t help noticing my patience that something will turn around is declining. holding on might not be the thing to do anymore

diminishing return

i take pride in what i’m capable of and the steps towards progression. i get that not everyone will appreciate accomplishments the same way. i’ve been on the receiving end of far too many discrediting comments that has no sentimental value. it would be nice to pay respect for my abilities when due instead of always heaving knit picky deconstructive criticism. leave it behind if it’s all negativity with no good intent; just don’t expect any in return. i’ve been disappointed that communication has been sparse and lacking lately. understanding the busy schedule that we run, there’s no reason to have no contact or replies until well after the fact. i no longer want to force anything so i’ll respond when i’m asked, otherwise i’ll stay behind the scenes and mind my own business. it’s kind of taken some of the joy out, but at least i’m not talking to myself. these are the little things that show a lot. life is a two way street and i’m a true believer in what you give is what you get in return. my patience isn’t unlimited so i won’t continually give knowing there’s nothing in the other direction

day 1338 – sprung out

sprung out of spring break and easily had one of my best showing this season. played a strong five and six today; had some extra firepower behind my throws and catching was on point. gstrings are starting to round into form and both teamwork and communication is steadily improving. there’s never a dull moment playing with these girls. aside from all the distractions, it’s good to see myself zone in and play a hard strong game

building 2017

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2016 was one heck of a crazy roller coaster ride. the past twelve months gave me ample opportunities to experience more of what life is about. i found myself in the darkest moments where i shut myself off from the world, fluctations and eating problems ensued. i managed to dig deep with the support of my close ones, and got myself back together. nothing came easy as nothing worth achieving ever comes easy. behind closed doors, i fought many battles that no one knew about, but the most important thing is i never gave up on myself. i came to realization that i don’t want to remain stagnant and don’t want to remain the same so i took on some challenges. i defined what my goals were and was proactive in taking the necessary steps to get myself there. through the hard times i gained a lot of knowledge and strength that no doubt made a better me. it made me realize i’m much stronger than i think i am and need to get even stronger to withstand. i’m much closer to where i want to be but i’m not where i want to be yet. i’m still working on becoming the best version of myself

finished 2016 on a high note and looking to build a strong 2017 with bigger and more ambitious goals. it’s time to take it up a notch or even two and fulfill whatever my heart desires

  • stay as healthy and as injury-free as possible
  • train smarter and eat properly with sufficient sleep
  • be more disciplined and focused towards my goals
  • continue to work on my confidence level
  • love myself for who i am
  • communicate more with family and friends
  • explore the world and expand my horizon
  • attain supplementary diploma
  • appreciate being a workaholic, but also appreciate the little things
  • save up for the number game
  • revisit photography
  • do more of what sets my heart on fire

i’m pumped to make the next twelve months the best months i’ve ever had. find my strong. it’s now or never

30 share it [twenty five]

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christmas day crept up so quickly. the holiday season is an amazing time to socialize, relax, shop, soak in the festive spirit, and most importantly spend time with people you love and cherish. i often wish there’s more opportunities to communicate with my family more. i try, but sometimes i just don’t try hard enough. this might be the season that matters most so i’m promise to try a little from here on. merry christmas and happy holidays to all

day 831 – mid season bonder

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mid season social featured rowing and sculling practice at the richmond olympic oval. the lesson of the day is rowing is not hard, rowing is very hard. thankfully we were only doing rowing simulation in the rowing tank or else we would have flipped the boat on our second stroke. this is a great choice of activity for team building exercise because it requires so much teamwork and communication. a very fun exec bonder where i exerted a lot of energy