day 1766 – trickery

i took a huge step out of my comfort zone and stepped back onto the spring floor for the first time in nearly two years. the plan is to get back into gymnastics and not only pick up where i left off, but to pick up even more things to add to my repertoire. i’m so stoked i got a chance to be spotted to go head over heels on my first day back. it was definitely a not a natural feeling after not having gone head over heels in some time. i wonder how long it’ll take me to get back landing this flip without a spotter. i have a lot i want to learn, so no doubt i’ll be pushing myself

day 1371 – all business 

landed in vegas new york new york for my first ever business trip. travelling with my manager is a scary thought, but after having lunch and an afternoon with him, he’s actually a pretty cool guy. tonight is the only free time i will have. i didn’t expect the fitness centre hours to be so lame, so i explored and chilled around the hotel. i had mixed feelings all the way here because i didn’t want to leave my comfort zone and feel so alone, but i’m going to make the best of it and get ready to work

building 2017

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2016 was one heck of a crazy roller coaster ride. the past twelve months gave me ample opportunities to experience more of what life is about. i found myself in the darkest moments where i shut myself off from the world, fluctations and eating problems ensued. i managed to dig deep with the support of my close ones, and got myself back together. nothing came easy as nothing worth achieving ever comes easy. behind closed doors, i fought many battles that no one knew about, but the most important thing is i never gave up on myself. i came to realization that i don’t want to remain stagnant and don’t want to remain the same so i took on some challenges. i defined what my goals were and was proactive in taking the necessary steps to get myself there. through the hard times i gained a lot of knowledge and strength that no doubt made a better me. it made me realize i’m much stronger than i think i am and need to get even stronger to withstand. i’m much closer to where i want to be but i’m not where i want to be yet. i’m still working on becoming the best version of myself

finished 2016 on a high note and looking to build a strong 2017 with bigger and more ambitious goals. it’s time to take it up a notch or even two and fulfill whatever my heart desires

  • stay as healthy and as injury-free as possible
  • train smarter and eat properly with sufficient sleep
  • be more disciplined and focused towards my goals
  • continue to work on my confidence level
  • love myself for who i am
  • communicate more with family and friends
  • explore the world and expand my horizon
  • attain supplementary diploma
  • appreciate being a workaholic, but also appreciate the little things
  • save up for the number game
  • revisit photography
  • do more of what sets my heart on fire

i’m pumped to make the next twelve months the best months i’ve ever had. find my strong. it’s now or never

30 share it [twenty four]

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attending my second christmas party in as many days. walking into a larger crowd only knowing one person, but didn’t feel the awkwardness because everyone was welcoming. mo and i got there just in time for the start of dinner and a counter top was already filled with food. there was a large selection to choose from including of veggies, meats and desserts to choose from. i didn’t have the stomach room to try all the dishes, but of all the dishes i tried, salmon was my favourite

summer special

the end of september can only mean that summer is officially over. september was a rough month, but i had a great summer and offseason away from dodgeball and taekwondo life. it was a summer with lots of happenings, new undertakings and big decisions that involved making a change, stepping out of my comfort zone and of course taking a chance. i live a very active lifestyle and took full advantage of the extra free time i got this summer by making my lifestyle even more active. i found myself getting really into crossfit olympic lifting plus also making the one plate club which is a big improvement. although an injury has momentarily stopped me from lifting, nothing will stop me once i regain my health. i had a blast with mo going on adventures. together, we created a lot of lomoventures with the highlight being a nice harrison hotsprings getaway. needless to say, we’ve been through a lot and grown significantly. he’s basically my zen when i get too stressed and uptight about things. no relationship is completely problem-free – we’re not different, but we’ve done well in this area. we don’t always see eye to eye, but we make sure we’re created equal and know that we like each other for who we are, then we’ll work things out. other notable events include completing a spartan sprint, playing on a softball team, training with national team coach, hiking, joining a hockey league. and of course some things never change like hitting tennis balls, visits to physio, annual walk with the dragon and the random pigging out. i look forward to improving and building upon what summer 2016 was all about

 

day 1141 – momentous

img-20190804-wa00003395891093379668373.jpgit wasn’t just an ordinary day even though we’re casually going through our own business. today marks another significant day, with many more anticipated. it’s been one crazy ride thus far; never want to get too comfortable so to keep each other on our toes. not everything will be seen eye to eye, but we always manage with a compromise. i’m just grateful to have been through so much, all that with him by my side, and hope it’s likewise

day 1119 – demeanour

img-20161224-wa0004.jpgsometimes when you get comfortable seeing something you forget to appreciate the little things that surround you. taking things for granted happens; it happens with things, it happens with people. i guess i can’t be too bothered because a good day at the gym cancels it out and also makes up for my last subpar performance. i am happy i made new ground today and i know there’s more to come. once again, it reminds me pr’s are meant to be broken, limits are meant to be surpassed and goals are meant to be reached

welcoming 2016

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2015 was a good year in the grand scheme of things. through the past year, i have learned a lot about myself and have a better grasp of what i want to attain and where i want to go. i realized my true ambitious self of not wanting to remain at the same level time after time, year after year. there was definitely not as much action as i would like in terms of taekwondo competitions, but sometimes fate and timing has a lot to do with it. continuing to be involved in the dodgeball community not only in vancouver, but expanded my team to richmond. there’s no surprise i remain injury-proned; but the frequency as well as the ability to heal myself has gotten progressively better. i cannot express how blessed i am to have met so many supportive people in my life that always lends a hand or provides motivational words so i can stay on track even when times get tough

here’s to welcoming 2016 with open arms with set goals and big ambitions to take everything to the next level. let’s write the next 365 days and make it a year to remember.

  • stay as injury-free as possible
  • eat clean, sleep earlier, train regularly
  • take on big challenges even if i am scared, that’s the only way to get to the next level
  • be more confident and less self-doubting
  • love myself, my family and my friends just the way we are
  • learn a new sport
  • pick up snowboarding
  • learn to code, write my website
  • complete obstacle courses
  • travel the world

i am ready to take on all these challenges. find my strong. it’s now or never

2015 at a glance

pulled together snapshots of some of my favourite and not so favourite moments of 2015. through this unfiltered eye, it pieces together my year and the things that took place behind the lens. it was 365 days of ups and downs, but having survived it all made me realize and learn more about myself. i have grown on many levels, taken strides to step out of my comfort zone and in the end, all that made me a better and stronger person more readied to tackle greater challenges. i will take all the lessons learned and head into the new year with the mindset of continuous progress and self improvement. 2015 had it’s moments – building the foundation and laying out the backbone necessary for success. i have a good feeling 2016 will be a year of many breakthroughs and personal achievements

resolution series: [fifteen] confidence

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i have never been a confident person and i still am not, but i have taken strides in this area. i have very high expectations for myself; the fearful part is when i do not meet those standards, it becomes detrimental to my already lacking and wavering confidence level. playing on teams definitely helped just knowing my teammates will always be there to back me up. i have been fortunate to be a part of numerous teams with awesome teammates that support each other so well and prides in teamwork and team building activities. team chemistry plays a big role in bringing home championships – i experienced that first hand. becoming a part of the vdl exec team has made me more vocal; part of the package requires speaking in front of large groups of people, constantly meeting new people and putting myself out there in a bigger community. taekwondo has provided me more than i could have ever imagined. having met a close knit family where we train together and sweat together. through instructing, competing and demonstrating, it has forced me to speak and demonstrate in front of students, parents and spectators alike. i am glad that many moons ago, my instructor pushed me out into competition because it has been, by far, the biggest difference maker. being alone in the ring with all eyes watching can be fearful as hell but when time comes i have no choice and just have to go on stage and finish what i started. no doubt i have gained a lot experience, respect and approval through being both an instructor and a competitor, but that also comes with responsibility and pressure. not only have i developed my own standard that i must live up to, but others also have high expectations for me that i’d hate to disappoint. all of these undertakings were a leap of faith that required me to step out of my comfort zone and into a completely new territory not knowing what to expect. from a person who is unwilling to speak up, i have evolved to being capable of stepping up in front of large crowds and audiences. this is not to say i am comfortable being in the spotlight because i still get nervous every single time, but at least i am willing to take that step forward. even today i still shy away from attention and hide in the background. i am still quiet by nature, and only when i feel comfortable around you will i start to open up and express myself. that’s when you will get to know me better as a person, my values, the driving force and reasons behind the things i do. there’s a lot hiding inside if you manage to crack my shell