day 1592 – gramercy 

i never questioned whether my heart is in the right place cause i know it myself. the holiday card and written notes says it all. this reminds me of why i continue to push through my hectic life to be teaching year after year. the commitment is by no means small, but one that is meaningful to me. i don’t want to give up these kids i’ve trained, some for several months and some seven years. i forget what it’s like to be appreciated for what i do and what i do well. i thought it didn’t bug me, but it actually does and i’m told i should never tolerate or take it from anyone that doesn’t appreciate

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day 1550 – sad truth

what a turn of events in the past forty eight hours; the hours i wish never happened. can’t say i’m not thoroughly disappointed, but can’t let one disappointment dictate how i live. no matter how i move forward with life, i’ll make sure what i choose puts me as a priority. sad but true that those i least expect to care for me cares more than those i thought would take care of me. it’s quite clear with the choices made and the actions taken, or not taken. i found out where i stand – nowhere in comparison to the many activities. any day could be my last day; if today was, one thing i’d regret is settling even not having been treated properly

day 929 – resurrect

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tomorrow i am going to get some me time to reboot both my mind and my system. i feel i need some time to regroup and make sure i’m back on track doing things i need to be doing and doing things i enjoy doing, for the right reasons. the past week or two has been lousy where i am just going through everything mindlessly like a robot but not thinking twice about what i am seeking out of it. and during this time, there’s either been a lot of emotional eating or unhealthy thoughts and choices made. i really should put things back into it’s proper routine and get back in the right frame of mind to make the best choices for myself moving forward. february is a short month, so better not waste time and get back on track as soon as i possibly can

day 658 – supress cravings

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it is so difficult to suppress random food cravings especially so when i am stressed out. and then it’s that moment when i finally manage to suppress my sushi craving, but then end up getting something else even more unhealthy instead. it probably would have been a wiser choice if i went to bed earlier instead of going out to grab some fast food at some ungodly hour