day 1574 – surgeon visit 

fifth time into the clinic and fifth set of xrays, the radiologist has gotten to know me too well. hand specialist handed me some good news today that gave me a reason to smile and it wasn’t that my bone has grown back together cause the xrays are still ugly. in fact, he reiterates my bone will never be straight again, it will never appear as one piece, it may always have clicking inside, but he intends on making my thumb work again. my splint is trimmed down a little and i’m given the go ahead on certain things. it just means i now have less restrictions as to how often i need to wear it. the road is a little more clear now

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day 1389 – lightly


with the way my life has been lately, today brought a slight smile that i haven’t seen or felt in weeks. got the nod from the chiro as long as i promise to keep it light and away from his nono list. went through all my big lifts but at most seventy percent of what i usually do. everything within my execution felt fine except for the bench. still no olympic lifts, plyos, overheards, nor ballistic movement, but just being back brought a smile to my face

day 1382 – off the post

dropped off my family for their flight to hong kong first thing, coached a morning of poomsae competition, and taught my usual taekwondo. ten hours without break before heading to my drop in game. playing drop in really cautiously so not to reaggravate my poor back and neck. surprisingly had a solid game on both ends of the ice with scoring chances, reading passes, and making back checks. i came really close but the goalie robbed me of a nice one timer. later, i had the goalie beat twice but only to have the post deny me both times. i will figure out way to find the back of the net again but overall happy with how my back responded – not worse than before the game

day 1326 – queen’s tournament 

kings and queens is by far the best tournament i’ve ever been to. the level of play was really high as all eight teams were stacked in both brackets. the atmosphere and competitive level was like tier 1 playoffs, only much more spirited. i had a blast playing at this tournament; i’m really proud of the team’s play. i’m just happy to be on the court even if it took layers of gauze and tape to cushion the underside. it didn’t feel great inside my shoe and the mobility was limited, but i played well while still being cautious

 

resolution series: [three] logical

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sometimes emotions get the best of us and it’s how we choose to deal with these emotions that separates you from others. whether that may be through physical outputs or financial outputs or caloric intake. no matter which method you decide to use, make sure it doesn’t cause irreversible damage, severe consequences and endless regrets. everyone has different values and interests and will use their money according to those wants and needs. i like to stay on top with my technology and gadgets and that will likely not change, but that is not by all means affected by emotional spending. emotional eating is a common problem, having said that, i am not saying i will not eat junk from time to time; i just have to beware i don’t use emotional eating and drinking as part of my outlet. need to have self restraint and be logical  by making healthy eating choices. for me, physical output is my go to source when it comes to releasing all my stress and emotional concerns. when i have a rough day, breaking a sweat allows me forget about everything else and usually feel lighter afterwards. it’s like gym is my happy place where i can plug in my headphones and be alone

day 644 – closing in

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getting closer to competition means more cramming to be done. while that needs to be done, i still must be really cautious cause my groin has still has yet to heal, which exemplifies how badly i had pulled it two months back. hoping with a little help from my friend ben, it will not affect my left sidekick too much. this is usually the time i start to feel the urgency and my stress level is soaring exponentially

day 637 – photoshoot

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practicing posing, sidekick and front snap kicks are amongst the many things i did tonight. playing around with some ultra expensive toys and lens that easily surpasses the triple digit mark. we were just having some fun casually kicking around and playing with lighting and angles. it was a night where i can set aside the pressures of preparing for competition, but must be extra careful not to overkill my legs and groin. the camera setup was super ghetto based on the resources we were given. i guess that’s what makes the photoshoot even more amazing