day 1379 – icbc rehab

the bad just got worse and now i’m put on a long chiro rehab program through icbc. the quality of life is just not there at the moment and i really want to give up. there’s no comfortable position between sitting, standing and laying down; basic mobility is compromised to the point where the pain keeps me from sleeping. it’s been a horrid week sleep deprived, not being able to go to gym, not playing sports like normal, not able to be myself. it’s asking for too much from me when i have reduce some of my physical activities and even hold off in some cases. i try not appear in pain but even staying strong has its limits and i’ve reached it. i don’t know if restricting all my sports is easier or death

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day 1362 – soluable

i thought wrong when i thought i could go home and get back to the same routine. pretty much everything i’ve been able to keep down has been liquid substance with the exception of bread. the only solid food i’ve managed to keep down is a plain toast at breakfast. sunday is not the same when i can’t heave this bar but i simply have no energy in me. sadly i had to refrain myself from doing my lifts and keep it light and under control

day 988 – doctor blows

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going in to see a medical doctor to satisfy my parents’ even though i knew it was going to be a total waste of time, and i couldn’t be more right. started off the week with a 39 high fever, dropped down a degree or two, but suddenly shot back up to 39 and now i even have cold-like symptoms. the doctor told me i don’t have strep throat, something i could have concluded myself. if i wasn’t semi dying, i wouldn’t even think twice about going in at all. what a way to spend my special one monther

day 302 – familiar territory

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erratic visits lately to fix my knee problems that’s been sidelining me for the past week. almost any kind of bending is prohibited aside from walking, this to me feels worse than imprisonment. three years today was the first time i broke my foot. how far i have come and how much i have gone through to get to this point and i will stop at nothing because i know it will only get stronger and better

day 300 – deja vu

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just as i thought my knee has turned the corner and fitted back in its groove, it pops back out of place. completely abused by my physio’s physical manipulation while he forcefully pushes it back into place. him at his best continually pushing my pain tolerance. restrictions order in effect that physical activity is not permitted and permission of activities must be granted. it’s also my 300th day post to date

day 196 – reacquainted

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i do not miss these at all, but i have no choice in my current stage. such an intense game of dodgeball i don’t even remember what exactly happened. somehow i threw, jumped, dodged, hit the wall and landed terribly wrong on my ankle and before i know it, i was carried off the court and my night was over. yet another untimely injury

day 189 – ice and more ice

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ankle still swollen and only feels worse after a night of dodgeball. having consulted my physio, apparently he had told me i was suppose to ice for next three days and wasn’t suppose to be do sporting activities. now that really disrupts my schedule, what am i going to do for the rest of the week??