day 2079 – private gym

hitting up friend’s private gym just so i could get some quiet time away from people. it’s been a rather draining week at work when i got a few curve balls at the end of last week. i got all my renderings done one day before the deadline. the stress not only made me sleep deprived, but also caused extreme lows for my blood pressure and i almost fainted in the morning. still, i wanted to hit the gym and do my deadlifts and pullups. the weight felt super heavy, but at least i got it done

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day 2065 – river road stroll

a sunny stroll along river road is what i needed just to clear my mind. let’s face it, i’ve been super burnt out from work and other things that i’ve have sort of lost myself. this is a reminder sometimes i need to slow down the pace to simply smell the flowers and take in the moment. i miss the days where i could take walks without stress, without rushing from one place to another. i take on a lot to please everyone, but maybe sometimes i just need to put myself on the priority list

day 1862 – knee dimple

while on the ground rolling, i can’t help but notice a dimpled spot in my knee. it’s a short work week, but i’ve been more fatigue waking up every morning as the week wears on. what i really need is a vacation or some personal time off away from work. i must be really burnt out from not taking a vacation all year long. continuing the grind no matter what part of the week it is

day 1837 – work hours

what has my work hours become better be temporary. i’m on my work laptop saturday night hammering out some project work after my teaching shift. i pulled out the laptop thinking i’ll get some work done. what was intended to be a one hour thing soon became a four hour thing. i’m burnt out from the amount a work a week because over sixty five hours just isn’t normal nor healthy

day 1468 – me menu

called everything off and put myself and only myself on today’s menu cause i need time alone to set my priorities straight. absolutely no work related tasks today – no work for the first time in sixteen days. i was going down the wrong path of cramming work in to avoid idle time which in turn has even more negative effect on my mental health. can’t say i’m not a workaholic but then realized i was more burnt out than ever. so first time sleeping in until eight, helped my parents moved furniture, went for a workout and cleaned my room. that is not to say i don’t see the relationship struggles, but we’ll both be working on it together. i do feel better thinking i’ve reset my priorities and reorganized my life for the upcoming week

day 1465 – victim 

i had a lot of trouble sleeping tonight. what makes me such a good victim for people to hurt and take advantage of. i guess my feelings can be swept aside, guess promises can be broken, guess what i like or don’t like doesn’t matter anyways. at first i didn’t think i was fat but being repeatedly called that makes me believe i am indeed fat and repeatedly makes me skip meals. even after long days i force myself through the fatigue to come here simply cause i can’t eat unless i exercise. today is one of those days where i’m feeling completely burned out from a fifty eight hour work week but still dragged myself to workout because my dinner is not yet earned

day 1018 – touring calgary

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after our run at this year’s nationals, we are wandering the streets of downtown calgary. we saw snow and rain in the first three days in calgary, but glad our fourth day was a warm and sunny one. this trip was been leg intensive as if we didn’t spend enough time walking and standing on our feet at the championship, we decided to do more of that. spark science centre, calgary tower, chinatown, stephens avenue and the core shopping mall were amongst the many places we visited. it was a good trip with teambonding time, but we’re all burnt out. i was ready to head home to see mo, but it won’t be long before i fly off again