day 1565 – presentation centre 

sales centre hopping has me drooling over cool models and showroom space. i need to start being proactive with my search as i continue to build on self investment and gain value in life. it’s about time to get serious again about the phenomenon of investment and building my the asset checklist i’ve urned. i have no doubt that one day, a piece of that will be mine. it’s a good feeling i’m inching closer to the ambitious goal i once made a commitment to. knowing where i’m going is a good feeling to have and it’s a main reason why i work as hard as i do

Advertisements

day 1462 – raising

first day of august which is also the day my new salary kicks in. i worked my butt off for this day and i will continue to work even harder to make my case. my manager said that he intends to take me as high as i would like. i’m in it for the ride and still on have my eyes on the target working towards that unit of mine. there’s a reason why i’m constantly working; because i know what i want. it’s about wanting to build my own empire from the ground up

day 1327 – belated celly

our significant day was delayed but not forgotten; finally getting around to celebrating with some finer dining. it’s a stepping stone for both of us and a much deserved night out. we’ve shared a lot and made the most of everything. of course we’ve had our ups and downs and sometimes i can’t help but feel distant, but i’ll still try to take the good with the bad. in every relationship there’ll be a mix of surprises and disappointments, i chose so to dissipate it and not let it affect me too long and turn the page from the recent built up frustration 

reset in order

image

through my struggles in the last little while to get past some major mental block where i have attempted to shut off the world and kind of turned against myself. during this stretch, my confidence level wavered immensely because i am unsure where i am headed and unsure if where i want to go is even plausible. is this what i thought i wanted what i truly want to pursue or am i just doing it for the sake of doing it? so many of questions along the same line popped out in my head and i kept questioning myself. it is scary to think that i myself don’t even have any of these critical answers. after hermitting and mulling about these uncertainties for several days, i think i am creeping closer to getting my answers. i think i see the light in the darkness, but the rest is really up to me because it’s mental thing more than anything. i need to train and build up my mentality game to be ready for my competition game. i have been involved in competitions nonstop without any rest, and a mental exhaustion is probably the main spur of this endless self crushing mental block. so for now, i think it’s best for me to step back to look at the broader picture. when something is obviously not going right, it calls for a break to make some adjustments. i am not sure how short or how long of a break i need, but i am positive that when i make my return, i will be stronger and better in every way

day 615 – physio visit

imagelooking out the window while resting between exercises and waiting for physio to hook me up with muscle stim. did not expect he would cranked it up an extra ten counts but here i am going strong at sixty. it was so painful but no words came out of me, all i could do was stare back at him and think to myself no pain no gain. no doubt he has succeeded in building up my pain tolerance over the years. the intensity of the shock was so high it left two big circular burnt marks on my leg

day 513 – game on

image

happy to be back at the gym after a long stretch of being lazy with no gym time and too much stuffing my face. a relatively quiet night at the gym since everyone is probably too busy shopping on boxing day or all tired out from doorcrashing. getting my butt to the gym was a struggle but felt good walking out that door. i will be back often and make it a habit in order to make things happen

day 362 – picking up where i left off

image

i have not set foot near the squat rack ever since my knee exploded. for the first time in nine weeks, i had the courage to step up to it again, but this time not having an expectations. to my astonishment, i was able to lift the same weight i had just prior to the injury. even though it’s not much and there’s so much to improve upon, it meant the world to me. it made my day and i can say i am truly satisfied. now i will work even harder to build up that weight